Horny's Things

There's a friend of a friend who's looking for friends w/ benefits kinda thing, (not specifically w/ me, but in general). I'm considering taking up the offer cause I'm horny, and it'd be rlly rlly nice to have sex. I'm just so worried and anxious of if he'll think that I'm not pretty or if he's not a virgin, (but I am) and I'll do something stupid. Ik that first times aren't all too great and thats fine and whatever, but like- idk, how do yall deal w/ this anxiety abt sex

Dude, I'm so horny, I'm so fucking horny. I want someone to just stuff me full with their hot thick cum while someone else fucks my throat and makes me gag on it. I want to be fucked doggy style in a park until I piss with nothing but a collar on. I want to be fucked in front of a group of people who'll fuck me after, all at the same time. I want to be fucked so bad but I can't even orgasm. I can barely cum, and each time that I almost get there, I have to stop cause it gets too much. That shit hurts man, and I end up just getting frustrated that I can't cum. Not a good thing that I'm into BDSM cause it's hard for me to get into the mood. How the hell do you cum? I've tried using a vibrator, turned it off cause it got too much. I've tried using a dildo, didn't work, was too small. I've tried using my fingers, didn't work my arms kept cramping and kept pulling my leg muscles. Please I just want to be able to cum