I genuinely love how much of a complex character the MC is given that it's straight up js porn.
We start off with the MC being described as someone who a "snakes tongue" and we get to see that in the following chapters later. But he's not inherently a bad person. He does have a Split personality, which is prolly bc of his past.
One of the personalities is this "sex madman". This is obviously a result of his last experience w his ex. (It's common for rape victims to be later hypersexual. It's to coping mechanism. Especially now, bc the ex manipulated him to the point that the MC himself thinks he's only good at sex and using his body).
The second one his his search for a belonging. We can see early on that he himself doesn't really have a sense of himself. He sees himself as only being good at sex, which his ex manipulated him to and as someone who actively searches for a belonging. While he doesn't realize it himself, it's obvious in the way he treats the king and Riza who see him as himself and the Pastor who sees him as good. He wants to belong to something or someone even if it means putting on an act.
His "snake tongue" is prolly something he started to protect himself. We can see that his ex was very abusive and manipulative and that's why the MC now feels the need to be the dominant one. We can see how he crumbles the second he isn't.
I rlly liked how kind off well done of a character he is, especially for a porn book
I genuinely love how well written the mom actually is.
You can actually see that she's trying to change and it isn't like a 360 switch, but a long and slow process like irl. While as readers we do get to know her narrative, we still have some kind of hatred for her, which again makes her so unbelievable well written. We do not need to forgive the abuser and the abuser doesn't need forgiveness in order to change, which is so well done this time.
They.. matched eachothers freaks somehow