XEIJAM's Things

what would yall do if u were in one of those kpop survival shows? how would u guys secure ur debut?

u dont have to imagine it as urself, pretend ur a random ass person in an idol survival show that u auditioned for. me personally, i would do anything that can set me apart from anybody else, and stand out among the other trainees. id fix my potty mouth and portray a proper image, one that's not too much, not too little but is still likeable. honestly, having been a big fan of the recent SS these days ㅡ i just cant stand watching those trainees speaking too freely and not minding their sorroundings, barely practicing or contributing to the team and having an attitude, i could probably eat up the competition if i was in a survival show.

& what kind of songs do u listen to

i feel lonely everyday, but this day just feels a tad bit more lonelier ㅡ perhaps it's because this day is a holi-day

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i have an extremely annoying male classmate thats very stubborn and arrogant. he doesnt do anything for group projects and makes a fuss about having to memorize 2 sentences for a presentation that I MADE and WROTE, he steals my food then throws the wrapper at my face and calls me racist slurs for no apparent reason. everytime i try talking to him for school purposes, we always end off in a bad note with him screaming or swearing at me like a toddler. we havent even known eachother for that long since he just transferred to this school, but i just feel like he has it out for me and only me. hes not even that rude to our other male & female classmates, hes actually quite polite to them sometimes. i dont understand why hes so much more aggressive when it comes to me.

ive tried calling out his behavior publicly, telling friends and teachers about it like the goody two shoes that i am but no one in the world seems to care. they say that its just apart of life and how its normal for a teenager to experience things like this, but honestly i seriously hate it and i cant take his attitude anymore. i dont understand him at all, it seems like he's out for my blood everytime he talks to me but then i see him staring at me during class with a blank expression. i don't know where it all went wrong. maybe i come off as clueless and annoying sometimes because i suck at interacting with people. but i dont know. what do i do?