
This wasn't the story I thought it would be, I feel like the mc was made to be a self-sacrificing fool instead of making her wiser. I feel like all the events leads to just her making selfless choices, without considering other ways to make her as smart as she is supposed to be. In the end, it is justified by making her the "cause" of the war. All her efforts just ended up being compensation for her forgotten mistake, which filled me with even more disappointment. Maybe its chinese author's love for drama. Or maybe I just feel scammed by the theme of lovers to enemies to lovers where I thought the mc would face her lover and all evils in an equal footing (or making it up with her wits and secret background) instead of being a tool with hidden motives.

I feel like the author tried to portray a self-destructive mc but swerved and went the safer way. In the earlier chapters, he has misconceptions and very pessimistic, he stays with a "friend" that obviously won't do him any good, tolerates abuses and harassment, he fights back but also isn't decisive enough to do something to stop it completely. And really, when he heard his sexual harasser boss got into an accident, he went out of his way to contact his family showing even more concern than the other employees? That really bugged me, I hope it really wasn't meant to portray as a good trait (seme said it was cute lol). As someone said, compassion for your enemy is cruelty to yourself.

their relationship is healthier than FYJT but the mc doesn't seem to be too bright or just too careless? lol. He forgot such an important plot point and made no preparation. It just doesn't make sense since he remembers everything when it comes to the ml but when its a dangerous situation he actually forgot..
hope he makes more contribution in his country and not just worry abt the ml
so the recipe for a successful toxic relationship is to only remember the shallow interactions? I feel like she's still fantasizing for the ideal side of him like when she can't even stop herself from going in heat after all that