i feel like iltak’s sister was grown in a petri dish by a guy that liked molesting people on a subway
i hope this prick’s (i can’t even rmb his name) suffering arc is a whole season long
the only nice thing abt him r his big ass rat balls someone pls turn him into a dildo for me n dan <3
oh we got the same autism huh i also have a strangely phallic shaped rock that is my favorite among my rock collection (a collection spanning 10 years)
they’re both so hot im losing my mind i genuinely don’t know who id rather be fr
ik it’ll never happen but the four of them as a poly couple has plagued my mind for years and it’s the only way i will ever perceive them lol
hyo un is such a cutie i would also marry him the next day
wow i have so many thoughts. okay, first, the actual story and the whole piece itself: it was great. not the best i’ve read but certainly up there and deserving of many praises. i was iffy about the characters at first and was worried they would be very transparent (typical psycho seme and pushover uke) but sekye and yijun turned out to have some of the best characterization i’ve ever seen. sekye was INCREDIBLY unstable and was uncomfortable to even be in a room with him even though he was just a guy on my phone screen but he turned out to just be someone with his own fair share of problems with no clue how to deal with them. and yijun was so sensible and so responsible for a man so young. he was in a tight spot and knew getting involved with sekye wasn’t a good idea but was too kind to others and less kind to himself to step away. but after falling in love with sekye he knew when enough was enough and couldn’t love someone at the expense of hating himself. OKAY ill just regurgitate the whole plot if i keep going but bottom line is i LOVED the characters they feel so fresh and so alive and so relatable just ugh. kudos to their creators id love to eat ur brain someday. the story was…unoriginal. but the characters made it into something that felt unique and emotional and ultimately made a story you’ve heard many times become one you wanted to see the ending to.
now this part gets a bit personal so you’re welcome to skip this, i just wanted to get this out there in the small chance that someone could be feeling the same way and know that you aren’t alone:
i have never. EVER. related to a character as much as han sekye. i didn’t quite like him at the beginning. he felt dangerous and i was worried for yijun but then we learned more and more about him and i was just left utterly devastated. im sure his dreams about haram will be interpreted differently for everyone but to me he had a severe case of maladaptive daydreaming, which i also suffered from. my entire childhood is lost on me and i can never look back fondly on those memories because i have none of them. my mother was a teen mom and immigrated to the US to have me without my father. she was young and didn’t know what she was doing or how to be a parent paired with having to work for herself and me and not having a great grasp on english, it was hard. so she wasn’t around much and when she was she just didn’t know how to properly parent and said things she shouldn’t have. for as long as i can remember i’d spend my entire childhood dreaming in order to get away from that inescapable loneliness. i slept and slept and daydreamed and slept to live in a world where i had a family that would be around from breakfast to dinner and parents that were happy they had me. my mother and i had a very strained relationship up until my late teens and unknowingly to the both of us i had ADHD and was severely autistic. i couldn’t get along with other kids, couldn’t do well in school, and the things i did excel at we didn’t have enough money to support it. i remember when the pandemic hit i had fallen so deeply into my daydreams that i had accidentally burned all of my bridges and by the time i had woken back up the seasons had changed and everyone i called a friend had all moved on. it was so so incredibly jarring it felt like everyone had aged those two years but i hadn’t. my freshest memories were of one’s two summers ago and i had gotten so disheartened i just gave up on forming any kind of connection with the outside world. 2023 i spent asleep, for as long as i possibly could. my average sleep schedule was 18-22 hours a day and i had dropped to 90lbs that year. dreaming had nearly completely destroyed me and it took nearly dying in the ER and having my mother weep but still try her absolute best to do what she could to realize that if i was to chase this perfect dream world any longer it would cost me the life i currently lived. if i kept dreaming i was 100% going to die.
it took a long time coming to terms with everything and taking the steps to get help and it was heart wrenching watching han sekye go through all of this too. my heart bled at how lost he was and how he had no one to help him and i cried when he and yijun ultimately found a way to love each other without hurting each other. i love this story so so so much and ill reread it whenever im down. i also really felt for sekye about his mother too and my personal hope is that they reconnected somewhere down the line. my mother was far from perfect but ive come to terms that she was also a kid that had her childhood robbed from her in order to have me. she’s not perfect. she’s a lil autistic weirdo and is bad at expressing herself but i know she loves me and even if she’s hurt me and left me with some wounds that may never recover, i still love her dearly and she’s my bestest friend. my mother and i have found peace just as han sekye and yijun have, and to anyone still reading, i hope you find your peace too.
to anyone that suffers from maladaptive daydreaming, please seek help. there will always be people who don’t understand and can’t see how dangerous it is. but it is. it’s dangerous and please find new outlets. just like han sekye i also became a writer. you don’t ever have to stop daydreaming and you don’t ever have to be ashamed at wanting to live in the good times, but you have to find a way to reminisce without drowning yourself. i just learned how to put my dreams to paper :) and just know that you aren’t alone. there will always be someone out there that shares your pain, and someone else willing to share that pain with you.
he has veins big enough to see through his fur….his pants crease towards his undoubtedly massive schlong…. i NEED HIM GGRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
i’m sorry but my favorite character in the beginning was icarus/crow mask and here at the end ITS STILL ICARUS he got arrested so long ago and somehow im still crying from the glimpses we see of him all the way at the end
and his team/friends getting released from prison?? i cried. idk abt them working with desir but that happens 4 yrs after they were released and icarus did help desir so ig i can believe it…
anyways he was def a character that needed to die for his redemption but i like that the effect he had as a character was still felt after he was locked up and after his death :) i just love flawed characters/villians. it doesn’t help that he looks so much like shigaraki tomura whom i also love dearly
aside from icarus- ZOD!!! i cried. and kept crying. when he said he wanted a son like desir i fell to my knees and shattered god it was so devastating. i love how good this author/artist is with conveying emotions in the characters, everytime desir cried i cried with him. finally finished this after a month and i will appreciate this story for a long time
furry this furry that ILL FUCK HIM WITH OR WITHOUT A FURSONA I CAN TAKW HIM GRAAAAHHHHHHHH
fuck i LOVE THIS i read this when it was first published and ive come back to it multiple times it’s just SO GOOD FUCK
i am a psychology buff (nerd) and a psych student and the proper portrayal of DID is just so nice to see…. of course it isn’t 1 to 1 since personas don’t typically have a fixed schedule to front (there r extenuating circumstances tho where this can be true) and it’s rare to have only a single other persona but for the story it wanted to tell it was CONSISTENT it was LOGICAL it was AWESOME
aside from being a psych student im also a gay man and this story is just so relatable god i just love this story i’ll see u guys next year when i come back for the 10th time lmao
sukjoo also being protective of dayun has me CRYING he’s so sweet sukjoo i luv u pls never change
go ijin!!! go sukjoo!!! go beat up some bullies!!! also i PRAY for the day dayun rolls up her sleeves and beats sum ass of her own lol go girl! protect ur friends!!
I reread the entire thing up to the most recent update so here’s what I think of vincent:
He’s the honorary president of Lampas which isn't all that surprising. He was a close friend of Jeff so I figured he was an important or top-class psycher. Unlike the other characters introduced that were close to Cassian/Jeff (Griffith, Cassian’s two students, etc) he doesn’t seem to be grieving Jeff but feels remorseful and grieves their memories more than anything. He was probably close to Jeff and not Cassian, and the photo of the two seem to depict a younger Jeff.
Now for Cassian’s sister, since Vince was introduced I always felt like he would kill her. I still think that but I also think the possibility of Vince not killing her when he originally planned to because he grew fond of her is also plausible. Regardless, the boy whom Cassian is currently possessing and…pretty much stole the body and life of, was fated to be a catastrophe class villain. Of course we see that he was extremely bullied by his peers but I believe his love for his sister would keep him sane. However, if something /happened/ to her, then I have no doubt that would’ve been the moment the boy would’ve awakened as a villain now that he no longer has the one person that supported him.
What I’m saying is, the TL where Cassian never enters the boys body and takes over, I think his sister died. She would’ve still met Vincent as Cassian’s actions don’t seem large enough to affect what happens to Lampas in the US, things would’ve gone just about the same with the exception of Ralph harming her. So I think Vincent, originally, was the one to kill her or at least orchestrate her demise. Though the reason why is unknown to me.
Vincent is probably going to be the final hurdle considering how important he is within Lampas. I’m excited for his showdown with Cassian as he is now, and how his sister will play a role in it all.
I hope nothing happens to her since she’s the only family Cassian has now that Jeff is gone but I think it’s unlikely that she won’t play a pivotal emotional role for Cassian. Also so so excited for Driver to figure it all out. What a smart lad. Can’t wait to see how he confronts Cassian for answers lol
hyo-un’s begging face…lord. i had to take a moment to breathe i am HOLLERING if god is real please send me a man as pathetic as this i swear to treat him well and also stick my dick down his throat
anyone know if it’s normal to be over 18 and still in highschool in south korea? just curious. i know sukjoo is 19 but he and yuna were overseas for sometime so it’s possible they decided to retake a year.
ijin just turned 20 and ik his class is the graduating class but none of his friends have mentioned his age. is it because he looks young so no one suspects anything? or is age not noticeable for koreans?
i understand why people have a problem with this story and find it disgusting. after all, the contents are extremely disturbing.
despite that, i personally really enjoyed it. i’m currently studying psychology as i find it very interesting and reading this story was a bunch of fun. people commenting “oh, if he’s not your real brother then leave” don’t understand that the MC has been with that abuser for more than half his life. you need to consider his situation: he was an orphan who met his abuser in middle school, so prior to meeting he didn’t have any suitable parental guidance and likely grew up socially underdeveloped. he finds family important, considering he stuck with his abuser well into his mid-30s to protect his (allegedly blood related) brother. his abuser has not only trained him through pain in a way that he probably has a pavlovian response of fear to the smell of tobacco, he’s left him permanently disabled with a complete lack of one of his 5 senses (not even including the disfigurement of his face that will stay with him forever). to find out he didn’t actually have a brother would leave him with no family, and unfortunately, the closest thing he would have would’ve been his abuser (based on how long they’ve been together).
but okay, let’s play with the scenario that this particular victim DOES successfully escape without any outside help, and his abuser never finds him and never will, and can no longer hurt him. even doing so, the abuser has permanently altered the MC and has left him in a state that is undesirable in the adult world. he went to middle school briefly but it would seem that his abuser pulled him out before highschool—meaning that he is uneducated—crossing out most well-paying jobs that will provide him with a stable income and insurance. as for easily accessible jobs (retail, public service, etc) with his facial scars most jobs will turn him away before any kind of interview. and if he does pass an initial screening, he would be low priority, and a high schooler would have a higher chance of getting the job than him. he has no real life skills, no education, no house, no money, never did his military service, no job experience, no friends or family, and no support system.
the sad fact is that this man in particular, had he managed to escape, wouldn’t have survived- and would’ve likely died in a year.
again, i completely understand why people wouldn’t like this story. it is dark and deals with very heavy, very real, and very disturbing content. however, saying that the story is bad because of the ending, because he didn’t run away, is just plain naive and disregards everything that lead up to the end.
and to reiterate: i do NOT condone anything in this story. just because i liked reading it doesn’t mean i like rape or abuse. i like the concept and how it’s handled and portrayed, and honestly, had it have dragged on and been any longer i wouldn’t have liked it at all. i am NOT victim blaming. i am being realistic and logical.
like it or not, stories like these deserve to be told. people clearly need to know about dark things like this considering the ignorant response it’s received. life-long abuse, to this level, happens to real people in the real world. instead of harping about how bad it is (rape and abuse is bad, shocker) try to turn it into a learning experience. what can you take away from this? not all victims have the strength to leave their abuser alone. even with a reason and a support system, it will ultimately be hard. show some respect for victims, leaving isn’t easy.
