
He has always been overshadowed and misunderstood due to his sexual nature and the BL storyline, but really, he’s such a tragically beautiful character in the sense that despite the lack of power over his life, Ian still lives for himself, and yearns for his own truth. Everything has been dictated by his circumstances. The struggle for autonomy has been a present theme in Ian’s character and TJ is in the flesh (symbolic), an inner reflection of his struggle to realizing his individuality. To live for himself and his wants. TJ in a sense is the “consciousness,” the objective or reality, better said the environment which shaped Ian. He is representative of the reality which Ian lacks control within. TJ quite literally looms over Ian like something inevitable, shaping Ian’s life, and he is Ian’s circumstances.
While Jo is the “unconscious,” the desire; being in control. Jo has always been representative and of what Ian wants: a normal, mundane life. But Jo is also Ian realizing himself and his identity outside of his circumstances. Jo who yearns for Ian, and chases after him, is symbolic of Ian’s need of finding himself.
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2024-06-21 00:00 marked

i sincerely thank you, seo doya. you have changed my life; no. rather. you have saved my life. thank you for existing. couldnt have done anything without you.
2024-02-12 02:32 marked

And yall can make fun of his name and his past but he'll always be better than someone who dared lay his hand arcoss the face of the person he said he love since the beginning.
*repost since I somehow deleted my comment trying to edit it.
2024-02-02 05:55 marked

I think Jooin also did a good job resolving things with Yahwi. He called him out on the bullshit and walked away.
It’s looking like they might reconcile but at least Jooin spent time on his own, reconnected with friends, graduated, and became an independent adult all on his own. He’s gained confidence and learned how to put himself first.
I’m not a fan of stories wheee abusers get a second chance so I’m probably dropping this now, but it’s not a bad place to drop it. I felt like I ended up getting a conclusion for every character.
2024-01-19 19:46 marked

I kind of get where the author is trying to go with this story but then again the breakup feels incomplete. It feels incomplete because only Jooin and Yahwi had a complete breakup ending based on Jooin's realization of his feelings towards Yahwi. Well, Yahwi has become someone he feels sorry for. While with Cain the breakup feels more incomplete because the decision was made based on a third party's opinion about their relationship; in this case Cain's older brother.
I wonder how will Jooin react when Cain's younger brother or older brother confirms to him that Cain is, in fact, not crazy, but is simply in love with him. Boy, that'll be extra depressing to read.
I can't argue with the fact that Cain's love for Jooin should have been written differently. Well, what's done is done. But, the reality check Cain needed to hear the most was to acknowledge himself as a human being, not as a dog, and to learn how to live in the present as well as to learn how to love himself first. And Jooin was able to convey that to him.
At the end of the day, the choices made right now will finally help them all move on and heal from this burdensome poisonous experience. Jeez, don't we all need that!
But, the author being the author, I won't be surprised if his end game is Jooin and Yahwi because that's what they've been shipping for since chapter one.
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2023-12-03 18:37 marked

Idk why so many are questioning it now. Many even ask what's up with the reincarnation story and when we finally get an answer it's suddenly "we don't care"?? It's part of the story you need to care when it's a big point that is shown to us since SEASON ONE
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Ian’s reflection