this chap is super sad cause when you want to kys this is how it feels. right in the cold ocean, thinking of other things and feeling entirely numb. poor dan. maybe he wanted to leave with granny, even though she's not gone yet those are his subconscious thoughts. He needs grief counselling so bad
let me laugh at myself a lil though... cause nobody in this story is ever gonna get counselling or therapy of any kind
Lmfao deadass the only therapy they get is the "physical therapy"
When physical therapy is the theme but there's no healing
It's so satisfying to see Garon all crazy tbh I kinda wish they had a fight to the death and that raonhiljo would win. I love when the underdog fights back
Some ppl are super defensive about this story and believe every critic is "vanilla" or a child, but the writing isn't even that good. I've read fanfic that had much better exploration of trauma through sex idk why this is the standard but the bar is in hell. It's an okay and entertaining enough story, I can see what it's trying to do, but it is inconsistent and leads the plot in certain arcs only to unsatisfyingly change its direction/aim/mood. If this is your standard for a bdsm story then that feels sad to me, cz bdsm is treated like nothing more than bad and scary sex in this by both the mc and ml it feels a little repetitive. I read to see if there's character development but it's a bit slow, so I'll probably drop now.
and tbh I'm not sure why it bothers some to see this story called out for bad bdsm. That's a normal reaction and it's probably internet brainrot to constantly seek justification for shitty plots just bc they're entertaining. An honest critique is not harming anybody, just like justifying the story isn't hurting anybody, bc it's all fiction, but some ppl can only seem to understand "it's just fiction" one way.
prosecutor nam took a toll on MC's self esteem or something cz he's so MEEK. I feel bad. He looked so cute with that wriggly little fox pup on the beach in his dream.
I don't like student X teacher but atp I'm not liking Jiheon a lot and the professor looks more interesting, so Wooju x professor ig
Is there a novel? Does anyone have the link on booktoki?
damn I feel bad for our MC bc he's so kind and soft... and meanwhile alphas are crazy in this universe. But then again I'm sure he'll give a pass bc it's his kidnapper and abuser getting the shit beaten out of him like he deserves so...
I always come back to just cheese at Mr Kwon teasing Yeon-oh in the bath and then massaging his head so lovingly after... he has a semi smile the entire time in that chap and I kick my feet and giggle cz FINALLY u can see how much he loves Yeon-oh and being around him. He was a fool for not appreciating him sooner.
dislikes on this is crazy... some haters are mad asf
"so my pain didn't matter" is where he lost me. This is such a broken way of thinking and the story never gets into it any deeper than sex. It's also cringe to use impact play as a substitute for genuinely wanting to punch something. It's a trauma response to think he needs to take care of other people's feelings above his own this badly, and I know it's the intention of the author so I'm not saying it's unexpected, but it's kinda crazy that it doesn't ever get addressed even in the MC's own thoughts.
Mr Han's "I regret it" speech is insincere, I would rather he was just honest that he can't offer any better and doesn't want to bc he likes that the MC is bending so much for him. I'm sure that's what the MC wants to hear anyway. That Mr Han likes him exactly this way. Some people with trauma like Seodan process it by letting their partners use them as a sex toy. Re-enacting the powerlessness and dehumanisation is like an addiction for them cz they're tryna rewire that traumatic experience into something else. So Seodan wants to hear that his partner just wants to use him exactly like he's offering
the mc is down bad and it's giving me second hand embarrassment but we're gonna persevere... maybe something interesting will happen. I hope it's not just the mc having no backbone for 50 chaps