I can't believe what I'm reading. Did Heesoo actually want to... "punish" himself doing this? Unprepared, in a painful way? For what he'd done to Dojin?
That's both so fucking stupid and heartbreaking.
Guys, can you recognise what breed Diesel is when he's a dog? Maybe we could then guess where he's originally from, lol. I feel like I'd like to know.
He is a Siberian Husky, just like Bexan.
This is not what a Husky looks like...
"Maybe it's not"
Wtf man...
Yaoi logic fam (￣∇￣")
literally would've just said "let's gtfo bc i think someone i really dont wanna see right now was here" or rubbed my eyes again to see if my eyes were playing tricks
Me too and I would be creeped out because the way jiwon was looking into the camera was kinda scary ahdhsjksh
TBH THOUGH??? as much as i love him, i actually want to physically stop him from even following poor dg
Many people say "Sangwoo needs therapy", but I doubt it would help.
Sangwoo can't be "treated", it's not like he only suffers from some childhood trauma and PTSD. Even now, when he finally lives a relatively "normal" life with Bum, he still is unable to get over his past. He literally can't learn how to trust people, anybody including Bum, because he was so deeply betrayed and hurt by his own mother, a person that is supposed to love you unconditionally, that no matter how hard he tries, he's just too much of a mess to forget and start everything over from the very beginning. His ways of "dealing" with his crazy parent, like behaviours that most people under normal circumstances would see as paranoid such as checking how many pills there are left in the bottle, were the reason why he managed to survive through his childhood. So, fun as it is, his psychosis made him live. The thing is, even now in adult life he still uses exactly the same methods to make sure he's safe, when there's no longer need to.
It's very tragic to see how Sangwoo's learnt mechanism of coping with problems that always used to work with his mum now simply seems to fail and makes him go more and more insane every day in addition to only causing him pain and suffering.
well said (づ￣ ³￣)づ
Wow. All of this story has definitely taken place in under a year. When he met Bum he was a serial killer. He only stopped murdering women lately. I don't know if he'd ever be a "productive member of society" but literally no one has ever offered him help. He has never (so far as we readers are aware) had any type of therapy and it seems has relied on himself since his mother has been gone. I wouldn't give up on someone so completely. I might not leave my kids or myself with him any time soon, but I'd like to think that if he actually sought help (or was offered help and accepted it) and worked at it he might be able to fix some of his issues.
I'm not saying we should give up on offering him any sort of help. My point is that changes that took place in Sangwoo's psyche are too deep and were developed on a biological level (struggle to survie) so I personally doubt that some regular psychotherapy would "cure" him. There are some conditions you just can't cure, which of course doesn't mean we can let people affected by them walk freely on the streets and not care about them, their feelings and what they do.
We all undergo struggle to survive on some basic level. And everything we do is at a "biological level" - those are actions. Unless you're talking about issues that are genetic that would take gene therapy to work on. Some things can't be fixed but he didn't seem to be like this as a child. It seems it ramped up through the years as his mother abused him more and more and was finally out of the picture. He's not necessarily a Ted bundy or John wayne gacy that have childhood serial killer links to their actions (the famous three wetting the bed, animal harm, and starting fires among other signs). Talk therapy and psychiatry may not work, but so far it seems like none of that has even been *tried*. He may have gone his whole life without even seeing a counselor. And of course there's so much we don't know as the author only gives us glimpses through time.
We all do have struggles, but Sangwoo's case is drastically different. Our experiences are very minor compared to his.
I'm bringing up biology because biology actually matters, and genetics isn't the only component. Like e.g. some stessors such as high cortisol levels in fact may alter your brain functioning, also you may experience some disturbances in your amygdala (amygdala controls emotions, mainly negative ones). And it's done through life experiences, not only genes.
It's interesting how every season of KS puts Sangwoo in a completely new light.
Season 1: Aggressive and violent Sangwoo
Season 2: Stealthy and plotting Sangwoo
Season 3: Psychotic and tragic Sangwoo
"We'll get you a place to live, so go and figure out your life. We've had enough."
Motherfuckers, how can you say this to your own child?! Well, you know what, fuck you.
At least they bought/rented him some lavish apartment instead of kicking him out onto the streets. He's at university, doing well and had/has an income from his streams. So although emotionally he is struggling, at least he had some stability.
Yeah so fucking cool of his folks that they "kindly" let their 18-year-old son SURVIVE instead of kicking him out because he didn't meet their ridiculous expectations. That's unbelievable.
Not justifying their behaviour, but he never ended up homeless and was in a better position than most. DG for example, is also living alone in a much smaller apartment and is having to work in a coffee shop, as well as manage his studies.
For a good reason, I suspect Jiwon would feel much better with DG's living conditions, but normal parents...
Jiwon is 25 years old now
And DG started working in a cafe because he needed extra money for chestnuts which he used regularly to pay for Alex's show, in case you don't remember
Maybe, he might not have wanted for anything financially, but the emotional void was massive thanks to the abuse of his parents and what happened with his ex. Dong-gyun too had his problems growing up though, he says at the start his parents were very conservative, which was a catalyst to him getting so engrossed in BJ Alex, as he represented everything he was not, and maybe influenced why Dong-gyun was so passive in every aspect of his life, which ultimately led to him getting taking advantage of or isolated, and not being able to assert himself in a productive balanced way, and relying quite often on alcohol as courage.
The events from ch.50 took place when he finished high school and took a final exam, which makes him 18-years-old because this is an age when you graduate in South Korea.
Everybody has problems, but the intensity of these problems vary.
To be frank, it's hard to talk about DG because we actually don't know that much about his past. We were only told that thing about his parents being conservative, and that's all. But my understanding of why he even talked about his parents being conservative is because he couldn't really come out to them as gay and receive their support (as far as I'm aware, South Korea is pretty homophobic). I mean, even regular porn was strictly prohibited in his house, so my guess is gay porn and even gay topic itself was also viewed as something completely unacceptable by his parents. Thus, he had to conceal his feelings and desires, and somehow ended up isolating himself and watching some cam boys online, lol. That's pretty fucked up, but not that uncommon actually.
"It was the first time I felt love, so I couldn't think straight."
No shit you don't think STRAIGHT, Jiwon...
Lol, this isn’t that funny, but it is xD
how dare you
Jiwon suffers from social anxiety. He's afraid of being rejected by others. However, unlike other people with anxiety who usually just withdraw from social life and become highly introverted, he decided to play it cool and pretend to be a model student with a huge circle of friends and at the same time completely reject the idea that he needs anybody or that he needs to love and to be loved. He made himself believe that no matter what you do, you'll always end up alone.
I still remember one of his broadcasts where he read out loud one of his viewers' question that went like "I broke up with my boyfriend, but I miss him a lot. Should I go back to him?", and Jiwon's response was "WTF man, don't do it, you'll only make yourself look like a fool".
That was really sad.
This is one of the most sweet love stories I've read in a long time. It's full of those sex scenes, but man, tension is strong here. And their relationship is very sex-based, but then you see sparkles in their eyes and how they look at each other, how they talk to each other. So fucking adorable.
Sorry I didn’t mean to dislike ahh (´°ω°｀)
Lol it okei