Rose's Manga

I want to write a review but it's 6am and I haven't slept yet. We're going to and I havent slept also WTF I unconsciously unplygged my phone huhu it's still at 49% anyway, this wa sso nice but I think is hould take a bath before I do anything else.. this is gonna be a long day.. I wish I had sleep but I had somuch fun reading..also, it's so weird. My day to day has been so weird. Feels weird. Everything is STRANGE yeah thats the qord. Life is good and yet it's unfulfilling. It's peaceful and yet why do I feel like is something looming over my life. I feel like either am not seeing something or like I am being watched or I have a gut feeling that something that my life is somehow gonna turn bad. Idk idk.. maybe it's because I havent slept well that my anxiety is acting up.


It is actually making me anxious. I should sleep well so I don't experience these things again. I should do myself better. I did. But I always slip and fall on to the same crippling habit of reading. I love reading though. But it is crippling. Maybe because I don't really talk much. That I find everything weird. I feel like my life is not what I want it to be. I bought hmm 12 albums recently... and it was not as fun anymore. It was fun but then somehow my feelings just numbs itself. Like an emptiness. Did I just do retail therapy. I'm not rich tho. I feel bad for my dad. How irresponsible self!. Anyway,.. uhm I truly do feel empty right now. It's so weird. What are other words... uhh strange. I suddenly remember a word I learned before.. i feel like it was unwonted.. was it? I don't even know the meaning of it now. It jusg popped in my mind. I'm so talkative. This is me tryna reach my word count so I don't rot my brain because of being unsociable. (I unconsciously unplugged my dang chafger again its still on 49)

I guess humans do need to find reason to live. I love my life and I truly wanna live like this forever but a certain emptiness is gnawing my brain. Like a toothless granma lol. What visual is that. I don't know what it is I'm tryna say .. I just wanna linger on this because I might be able to land what I was tryna pinpoint..

But idk idk idk idk idk....

All I can think about is.. this is weird.. it's like I am not in my present.. right.. it does feel like I am not .. like there's this toothless granma tryna make me get away. Idk idk idkkkkkk.. unsettling.. uhh.


I should go oht more often. I feel like just being in my room is making me insane..


Am I havung midlife crisis??