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I saw a couple of comments disliking how Youngchan kept going despite how much pain Hyunsoo was experiencing. Now, feelings are valid so I'm not disagreeing with those comments, just thinking about why this particular scene didn't bother me. It didn't bother me because of the last chapter where Hyunsoo basically said "at least I can give him my body." For Hyunsoo, since he likes Youngchan so much, being connected to him outweighs the pain. In the case of Youngchan, his desire to be connected to Hyunsoo outweighs his reason. The four emotions mentioned at the end (joy, fear, agony, bliss), perfectly describes this entire sex scene. The "joy" of surviving a dangerous situation and being each other's arms again, the "fear" of being honest about their feelings for each because of anxiety due to trauma, the "agony" of bearing the weight of their ever growing feelings for each other, and the "bliss" of just being connected despite all the other feelings they're experiencing.
Now I know this is just me overanalyzing all this cuz I'm obsessed with this story, but I figured I'd just share my thoughts