tbh if this story was published before the Gian and Misha one i would've appreciated it so much more, i honestly couldn't stop thinking about Gian the whole story even tho this was before they met :/
I feel the opposite. I'm glad we got to see him with Gian, and then we got to see how he became that way--his pain and growth--so that we now can hope for his happiness with someone even more suited to him than Ilya. Not a father-figure/lover/financial-supporter but someone more equal.
It's as you say, but for those reasons i couldn't feel the warmth and love as in the other storys, which is not bad at all because these storys are extremely well developted and makes as feel and see different things. I just pointed that out because everyone seemed so enrolled with Ilya's death and their relashionship romantically and i couldn't get why, so i thought it was because i just cant get Gian and Misha out of my head.
I think because I saw Ilya as transitional from the get-go (ie, he wasn't gonna be the love "endgame"), I could have that bit of distance and patience. I knew the dude was gonna die (the red flags were there from the start). What I didn't know was he going to really love Misha and Misha him, or was it going to just be some arrangement out of loneliness and need. I actually would have liked Ilya more if he hadn't seemed to be grooming Misha for BDSM, which I still feel was part of his original intent--both to rescue and to groom and to salve his lonely last days. But it was an interesting and strong story of people from very different backgrounds making a way for each to get something satisfying and loving from each other. Misha could not find Gian and be with him had Ilkya not made him who he became: elegant, educated, skilled, and patient.
I guess you're right. I was from the start trying to see it as another one of these love storys but if you put it that way it makes much more sense and continues the beauty of all of the other storys, so thank you for replying, i really love these and you just truly made it better for me with that description. :)
Actually, I think i didnt get this story because i still yet dont understand these kinds of feelings, but having in mind what you wrote im gonna read it again because this is one of my favorite mangas/manhwas(please fandom dont kill me) and im getting frustrated with the fact that i just didnt like it. Im sorry to keep bothering you with these long replys
No bother at all. :)
Omg, the fact that i once wanted to drop this and didn't really care about the updates and now I'm just enjoying this so much is amazing! Great turn of events, its getting more and more interesting and I can't wait for season 2 :D