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I fear for what I have in the future. I'm losing myself and those around me. Im willing to sabotage myself just to be somebody's choice/option. I'm scared of losing my friends, family and eventually my own mind. I've already committed a bunch of unforgivable things and said thing that aren't very good but not bad enough to make me unredeemable as a......