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I don't know how to feel, at all
I'm just flabbergasted...
I genuinely don't know what I expected but it wasn't this,
while being incredibly well-written, I do feel that it was definitely bittersweet and, personally, would not reread lololol, my therapist will be hearing about you jesus
I guess, all in all, Jonathan just really wanted to be freed, really wanted to have somebody know him and surpass him, just so he could succumb to them, pay off his debts to Wald
Even now I don't know if J really loved Makoto. He released himself from the curse, and admitted to loving Makoto once. However, Makoto knew that it wasn't true, that he was never loved once by J
So are we supposed to take Makoto's word? I guess it makes the most sense, and Jonathan could have been trying to throw Makoto off?
I would have loved to see more of J's background? I feel like everything just happened, and while I definitely felt the tension, I wasn't truly able to feel, like, the emotion? is that dumb? the author def did an amazing job, but I didn't really develop an emotional connection to any of the characters beside Makoto and J, which could be mainly a me-problem
I don't know how I feel about Makoto taking in someone, much like how Wald took in J and J took in Makoto, it seems, just a little, contrived, in my opinion? After reading all of this and reaching the final chap. with him in the slums, I could just predict that, oh, he is probably trying to find someone like J that he can project himself on and hope that one day that boy will surpass him

Though, I do get it? Being that powerful can only last for so long, and you will always want for more. More being, destruction, something different, the end
I only know that that boy he picked up may be one of many, or the final key into ending his life
Will he join J in whatever twisted afterlife there is afterwards? Is there such a thing?

Truth be told, this artist inspires my art, I love just everything about it