
not that it's bad but I still can't get over how much angst is there in this one bl. Hell if it even deserved to be called "bl".
First the uke is toxic af, manipulative and shitty we all blame him. If he doesn't even want to date a guy in the first place just be honest and don't keep it to yourself.
Second, the seme here is the typical toxic parents kid that has a very traumatic childhood that makes him unstable which we know he's very sensitive and prolonged to being loved and appreciated. Uke used him, seme knows it but keeps clinging on to believe it is not true yet the reality is still reality and his fantasy of them being together is crushed from even the start of the story.
Uke knows about his past yet uke use him even though he feels "guilty" of it. Seme becomes psychopathic from all the obsession of finally tasting "love" for the first time and now is a mad man. Doing whatever he possibly can to keep the fragile relationship together.
In the end the one plot twist that keeps this story together is the "loophole" where they all start over and over and over and end up killing each other again and again and again.
Overall ratings: "not a bad read but I definitely don't recommend to those who's a bit on the weaker side. Definitely will read more fluff after this"
This is my opinion, if you have yours feel free to share to others. Don't start an argument and please, have a nice day and thank you for reading this shitty writings of mine (=・ω・=)

Just a theory from what you said it's a "loophole" I think to break from the loophole is for them to actually fix this relationship for real but we know dam well they will get the same ending where they would kill each other at the end and the seme would stuck in this loophole starting over again, and maybe he will become more obsessive too. Anyhow if there was no loophole they probably both be dean on the ground with each other
I want him to say something along the line of "you're my whore now" or something the next chapter ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~
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