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Like almost everybody else, I already knew that Ash died because of all the spoilers but when I finally got to the last episode I thought “Ash lives? Yes! Thank gosh, why would people li-?” I was already crying a bit (cause of the “I‘ll never see him again” and just how bittersweet the last few scenes were)but the last scene...it really hit me hard. I’m still crying while writing this. My feelings are so mixed right now. But I’m comforting myself with things like: “even if we don’t see each other, he’s still my friend” and they’re destined soulmates, they’ll meet again in the next life and finally get to be happy together.
This story is so beautiful, even though my eyes hurt and will be swollen when I wake up tomorrow I cant bring myself to regret watching this and can’t wait to be able to read it too. I loved everything about it even if I hate it at the same time (does that make sense?) I just know that Ash and Eiji truly love each other and forever changed each other in a beautiful, crushing way. Eiji carries Ash with him as does Ash, so they’ll definitely be happy together some day. That’s what Ash’s sunlit back is telling me along with Eiji’s words to him in the letter. They both deserved to be happy together, and Ash deserved to live a normal, happy life- they’ll both get the chance to someday. And when that time comes neither one of them will say good bye, like this time, but next time they won’t have to. The last scene is devastating but also gives me these hopes which I’m confident of.
Are we kidding?? I'm crying on a hiatus special...the author is too good!