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Titles.. yes i know about sdv and a date with death and our life but they're the only ones I know preferably visual novels since Im not good at games like love and deepspace

okay obviously STUPID question but im just not sure if i have internalized misandry and i just cant think with nuance?

i asked a male friend of mine if he understood the man v. bear thing and he was just so offended by the argument. ofc i tried to explain that its not so much misandry and that women realistically do not have a lot of people (men) to trust in the world and he argues that it IS misandry and what the chances are of us actually being put with a creep/ist. he kept saying that obviously with the bear that theres a bigger chance of us dying than being assaulted by a man, where i argued that some women just care about their safety and he said "so you guys will choose death as safety"

he was just defensive and of course i get that... people are naturally defensive when they, well, feel the need to defend themselves, duh. but he just called me misandrist and generally he was being aggressive and told me that he's just giving back the same energy (stupid answer for a stupid question) when i asked if he needed to be so rude about making a point, and i just cant help but think if i was being unfair? because i know the feeling of feeling wronged and that if a sexist begins arguing with me that is also how ill likely respond, so i dont know if i need to reflect. am i sexist, am i misandrist? i genuinely try not to be because theres enough hate in the world for and on both sides, i want to be fair towards both men and women since we are all in it together at the end of the day.

can someone who can think with nuance tell me if i have some issues i need to be aware of?

okay itll sound really stupid off the get go but i became friends with my ex like 2 months after the break up after he went no contact. we've established we love each other still at least and we'll get together when we're older/when "he achieves everything he wants to achieve"... problem is idk if i could see that anymore.

theres definitely a lot of guilt because i treat him like crap during our relationship (though it went both ways and we were just very mean to each other) and i know hes changed because of me but i just feel like we'd be incompatible already. my feelings arent an issue bcs tbh i genuinely feel like i just dont love him anymore due to the fact i know hes became someone i font recognize anymore and i can genuinely see myself single and a bit happy and i can easily picture a future where im just on my own and have a baby through ivf and id be content and at peace.

but i guess im just a bit sad because hes familiar to me and were friends... and i feel like its just a wasted relationship. again its probably because of the guilt but i so badly want to let go but i just cant... does anyone whove went through a similar experience have advice? i cant really ask my friends for advice because they sort of not like him when he broke up w me one day randomly and theyll throttle me if they learn im on friendly terms w him lmao

see title... i just realized that for the past few months ive been watching slop videos that dont need me paying attention or thinking at all and honestly its taking away my literacy lmao. i just feel sad because i see the contrast in my liked videos on youtube when i scroll far enough. it went from videos to lemmino or nexpo and documentaries in general to trash commentary content about the most basic stuff.

can people who watch videos with actual substance please recommend me some of them. channel recommendations are also highly appreciated, altho i already know the big names in the industry like stated above.

idk i may just be tweaking but recently a friend said he dislikes handmade gifts. no judgement there but what he said next kind of set me off a lil, because he said he wouldn't want one from his theoretical girlfriend and handmade gifts would end up in the trash. of course i ask 'even if its from her?' and all he told me was i should be practical ermmmm... idk. it might be a slippery slope argument but i just feel like hed be the type to throw his childs drawings in the trash. is it a red flag or am i just unreasonable