reading these chapters of fun and joy hurts more knowing that theres some very heavy angst coming probably soon i do not have the strength
I binge read this thinking ch79 is the latest period but NO there are MANY more chapters available in korean pretty sure a whole another season has been completed and the next one is set to start in a few months time as well we being starved fr
I got so used to the top quality official translation I was caught off guard with the new chapter I think going forward I’ll wait for the official ones to be posted
They’ve always been so calm and composed even when in an argument or disagreement in the past, it was kinda scary to see them so angry towards each other it really felt like seeing parents fighting LMAO
Tbh i have absolutely no issue with the orange hair guy being the end game. He adores the FL in his own way and his likeness towards her doesnt come from an old “connection” so its unique on its own. My issue is (if he really ends up being the end game) is the lack of content revolving around FL and orange hair compared to black hair guy and FL. Like the point of a lead pairing is the author puts them in situations and circumstances that makes you root for them to be together over time and the focus mainly is on them. It sucks that that kind of chemistry lacks severely for the FL and orange hair guy.
what on earth are u seeing cuz his hair defo isnt orange
Pink i guess? Sue me i was a little too focused on the black haired guy I suppose
u got it !!
Really updated here as if its ahead of webtoon
What is the name in webtoon??
“i don’t hate us”
replying bc i just noticed how awful the quality here is just read it on webtoon website or app.
I read it on webtoom lol wayy better
In case anyone (who is not depressed or never experienced thoughts of suicide) has trouble understanding why the sister did what she did, I just want you to think about what state of mind a person has to be to take such a drastic step. Things like bunjee jumping, being at an insane height, very dangerous rollercoasters and extreme sports make people scared because doing them goes against that instinctual need to stay away from danger. That intense feeling of fear is very real even if you know that you have safety harnesses etc. So imagine what someone who decides to end things must be feeling if they had to go against that very basic survival instinct and fear. Their existence and living experience is far worse for them than not existing. It’s okay if you can’t understand her (or people like her) decision, I hope you never see them as “weak” or see their decisions in a negative, degrading view.
so glad that this manhwa is getting proper translation FINALLY I was so sick of the ass translation knowing just how amazing the story actually is.
I completely understand if this manhwa (and the story adopted from the novel) is not everyone’s cup of tea. I just finished reading the novel and will be leaving my honest opinion overall below so pls be warned of spoilers!!
So first things first, there is no typical character development or arc for the ML as people usually expect from an ML who is meant to be loving but is actually shit. This ML will make your blood boil and there are VERY few instances where I liked his character even remotely. The reason I kept going however is because the author did a fantastic job actually writing him as a twisted, complex male lead rather than someone we’re supposed to go “oh im sure he has his reasons” about. He is portrayed very perfectly as a cruel, cold man of noble status who has never known difficulties in life. The author writes him very well in that way deliberately. So if you despise the ML, it’s intentional and completely valid!!
With that said, there are heavy themes in the story. Going forward from where the manhwa is currently, the story will show Matthias (the ML) becoming increasingly intrigued by Leyla (the FL) but not in a “oh this person is so interesting I wanna know more about them” but in a dissecting way. Why does she catch his eye, why is he always seeking her out unconsciously, why does her sunny disposition always irk him? In that sort of way. Their interactions at the start will mainly include Matthias finding a reason to get Leyla to seek him out, sometimes he’d hide her glasses, one time her pen, etc. All of these involve very like implied differences between their societal status with Matthias being the Duke and Leyla being the orphan kid adopted by the local gardener. Matthias’s way of viewing Leyla and even others around him is very non-human and very cold and calculating. I don’t mean to sound like I’m defending him, but the way the author writes his inner thoughts and monologues, particularly in regards to Leyla who is basically an anomaly in his usual stoic life, kind of makes us think that him being a high Noble and having only been surrounded by similarly powerful and status based environments, he seems to be almost completely unfamiliar with positive emotions like love, empathy, humbleness, mere happiness and joy of simple things in life- everything that Leyla basically embodies which, imo, is what makes him slowly obsess over her more and more intensely. He’s very manipulative and basically ruins every plan Leyla makes that could lead her away from his grasp. Like for instance, Leyla had convinced herself to marry Kyle after he proposed to her numerous times bc she thought it was best for her and her future plans of going to college and becoming a teacher. But Matthias as always ruins the plan by essentially helping Kyle’s mother who was against their marriage and that leads to Kyle and Leyla separating and Kyle going away for a long time with Leyla back in the same space as Matthias. The peak of his manipulation comes when he makes trouble for poor Uncle Bill and in exchange for Bill’s freedom, Leyla ends up in a deal with Matthias where he essentially wants her to be his mistress. It is as terrible as you can imagine (and yes it is very coercive and manipulative in that sense as well so pls be warned!) but one thing I’m glad about is the author never romanticized his terrible actions. The author (imo) also never made it out to be as if he was charming or that Leyla suddenly grew fond of him. He was still portrayed as a cruel, twisted man. Im not sure if I should like explain the entire plot LMAO but personally, I enjoyed the story a LOT. It can be quite overwhelming but it’s beautifully written with equal amount of detailed look into both leads’ thought process (Matthias’ thought process over time was really interesting to read personally). Yes, they end up together. I was a bit disappointed with how it went down, particularly because it felt a bit abrupt to me. But yes they end up together with their happily ever after :) if you like pairings like in Olgami or Betrayal of Diginity (in the sense that the main characters are very much morally grey and you can’t simply decide on whether you like them or not with a hint of dark angst), then I think you’ll like this. But otherwise, I think you should skip :) For your own mental peace, I don’t think it would do you good if you’re not fond or too tolerant of stories like this (which is completely valid and okay!) also the novel is completely translated and finished on a website called woopread dot co!
Oh no, a completely shitty ML who will never have character development.
Lucky for me, I like those MLs. ╮(￣▽￣)╭
Bahahah love that for you Also I would say he does change but not how readers typically want MLs to change. And I think I like that more, it’s more interesting to read!
Oh nooooooo~~~~~
Moreeee
You just sold another reader. Tho im gonna wait till a few more chaps. Her being 12 feels illegal. But mainly because my anxiety cant handle updating stories that has too much drama innit.
Thank you for your service, I'm dropping this, peace out
Fair enough! They will have a time skip pretty soon where she’s 18 if I remember correctly and the story also picks up more from there. However everything also becomes quite complex from there on haha so your anxiety will be at an all time high
I'm sticking around till the end.
Thanks for the spoiler although this looks like a long and painful journey for us readers.
To me, Mathias' manipulations to get Leyla suits his chara, personality, values and objectives. He was brought to be a Duke and think the way he does, so why would he suddenly change for Leyla just because he takes interest in her? It's more credible to see him manipulates and "plays" with Leyla's life, without consideration of how it may impact her futur or plans (poor uncle Bill :'(...), and regarding his status and her persistance to escape his grisp, he must think he has no other choices but proceding like this. A chara development of ML that would happen fast like if he just flips flop personaility will make the plot look far-fetched.
I didn't read the novel yet but with chap 10 we can already guess well his view on life and his will to perpetuate the legacy of his family. He's ready to accomplish what his family expects of him. His life is peaceful, he already has everything materially, he's content with it and doesn't want for things to change... so when he meets again Leyla, it was like something unhabitual and totally different erupts in his peaceful life, pulling him out of his routine. I agree with you when you describe his approach to Leyla as "a dissecting way". Leyla, with her luminous and optimistic, humble nature, is something new to him so he may see her as his new interest, a way to get away from his boredom.
He finds joys in messing with her and see her embarassed.
When he annoys Leyla with her pen, it was really childish of him but it perfectly illustrate his state of mind at this moment. He plays with her like a cat would play with its prey. She stirs up his curiosity and the grown man that he is starts to act childish like a kid would do with the little girl he likes; doing the immature things you describe. He may like her already as he toys with her, but at this state he doesn't know it yet. Love like affection, empathy... these emotions and sentiments are new to him ╮(￣▽￣)╭
If we only see his actions through this lense (him playing with her to spend time) without taking in account his backgroung and the reasons why he's acting like that, we'll sure hate him and keep doing so.
The ML being a protagonist with a complex personalite and acting in accordance makes this story more credible and intruiging.
If I could, I'd prefer Leyla to be with the kind Kyle, but the story as we know would be plain and end rapidly ^^'
Plus, Leyla being an orphan abondoned and abused by her close relatives... being married to a Duke when she grew up is a revenge for her on the face of these bastards.
I hope we'll get to see how these people will react when they'll know the new.