I really love that they’re kinda adding a realistic take of them like, kinda having conflict over their age gap. Doyeon pokes that fault in their relationship, but he’s so clearly not a 2nd ML because yiyoung doesn’t care about him. Like yiyoung really gives off “young guy part of the modern gay community” unlike other stories where it’s always some popular king of the club. Yiyoung is like so realistic as a person even if his situation is far fetched, so it’s nice that there’s some realistic conflict over their age gap even if the actually events are a bit over dramatic and silly.
She IS over her love and romantic feelings for Theodore (first life lover) but she has complex trauma around him and his betrayal and so she thinks her strong feelings must be love because to her love is hurt and sacrifice. She clearly loves therode (current duke) but doesn’t realize it. My head cannon is that Benjamin is Theodore’s reincarnation, and this will be revealed so Astina can realize she is over him, or even hates him and be with therode.
Yes finally someone who gets it!! When you think love is associated with things like betrayal, sacrifce, the erasure of ones' own will, you tend to form an invisible wall to stop yourself from getting hurt again, and you just don't know why you keep pushing people away until you get to the core of the problem.
I like that headcanon too, it'd be nice if that was a way to give Astina closure since she's currently stuck dealing with everything inside her own head given that no one knows her history.
I reread this a bit after like more than a decade and I can totally see how todays kiddies would auto flag this as problematic, and it is, but god do the emotions hold up despite the yaoi man faces/hands. This type of set up was really common back in “the day” so try to just imagine the age gap and power dynamic away if you want to try to enjoy it I guess ¯_(ツ)_/¯
It’s like, definitely uncomfortable, because each character has their own trauma. But like, this is what having an adult relationship is like? Like sometimes you step on your partners trauma by accident because of your own, but being mature and in a relationship means trying things, even if they don’t work. They’ve not even really known each other that long when you think about it. If this manga was tagged jousei, I feel like people wouldn’t be so confused or disappointed in the depth that their relationship drama is going.
Of her falling out of love was so good. They really dropped the ball on their redeveloping their relation ship. It’s also way too corny and immature given all the shit that’s happened. Also zero 2nd Ml development. They should have had Jeremy and rion be a single character to give a good reason for him leaving the picture, and make it more dramatic when they were kinda together. Like if lizenas house was a fallen dukedom and Jeremy was the missing younger brother. I can’t give this a 1 because of how good the beginning was but I’m at a loss on how to rate it :/