Lover of romance's Things

I have had feelings for two of my gay friends. The first one 's male and the second is female.
The first:
I've known him since forever. He's actually one of my first friends when I moved to this current location. I've liked him since I was 10 and never told him. I guess that's made me a fool. Even then I must have known that he's not for me. I was more comfortable in the friend zone. I watched him date girls then guys and listened to him as he told me about them. I figured that I still liked him because my heart ached, as he babbled on about this guy and that guy while knowing I would never be the one.
Along the way, once I was in high school, I did date another one of my friends. Things between him and me were not as good as it should have been. I never felt like I had a boyfriend, with him. It felt more like a friendship than dating.
Then came one of my close friend, who is a female like myself. I became friends with her in Senior year of high school. She was like fresh air and the openness of freedom. By the end of Senior year, I fell for her. I think that I loved her since I first laid eyes on her. At the time, I thought I was straight because I was raised in a strict home and I didn't even get a chance to explore. So I didn't allow myself to think about liking the same gender. Being in love with her taught me that it's ok to feel this way towards people even if they are female. Love is love. Even if she and I never got together, she is still one of my close friends. This is my story.
What's yours?