like... i can't shake off this certainty that the the only sniff of authenticity, relief, honesty, flow, home etc. was with kouya and with tatsuo she's back to wearing a mask and trying to be better, grow etc. with kouya she was always ENOUGH and naturally shining, with tatsuo there seems to be some pedestal she tries to reach. i couldn't be team tatsuo even for a second, i really tried. she'll be burnt out again if this goes on and she'll end up asking the same questions as before, maybe this'll finally force her to be more introspective and honest with herself whoever she ends up with.
ohhhh, i feel you my guy. he has valid reasons for not being able to be close with girls. he still might be straight but it's impossible for him to let his guard down in front of females that want something more from him as he gets triggered instantly. talk about trauma. so glad he could hit it off with the big guy. thank you trauma ig as they are such a good match.
it's my 5th time trying to get through the beginning chapters, but let me tell you coming to ch 31 was such a struggle... my 1st attempt was more than 2 years ago but every damn time i pick it up i'm soooo disappointed and bored. but then i see the rating and the comments again and i'm like WTF?! this is so rare for me to drop stories but 4 times is my goddamn record. pls pls just tell me anything besides 'it's worth it' that'll help me get through the struggle at the beginning. i want to believe there's some reason for me to come back here to give it yet another try. or was it super cool from the very beginning for everyone and i should just stop whining and scram? ... ( ̄∇ ̄") i still have some hope left in me heh
taegun could as well top but he's so much fun being a feisty tsundere/honest talkative btm.