shironakuronatasa

OMG that's sooo cuuttee <3.

I have 4 sisters and I don't really like them that much, since they don't respect the stuff I like and the stuff taht I don't like and will always do the things I hate and call me moody and they keep annoying me by messing with my belongings. They call my passion for drawing a toddlers hobby, and they will always wear new things that I myself didn't wear yet to muddy places and on rainy days and when they get back home they become ruined and when I lashes at them they say I am stingy and sheep even though they don't allow me to wear their things, they also make fun of my depressed appearance and say I look like a grumpy middle aged man.
Since they look sooo different from me and think differently form me and don't share any interest of the things I like, people often say that I might have been switched in the hospital, and I think so too lmao. I always try to make up with them by making cakes and food for them or buy presents to them on their birthdays with my own money even though I have many things I wanted to buy, but they don't say anything when I bring the food to them and will cut me off while talking and start talking with eachother as if I am not here, and they never not even once congratulated me on my birthday let alone bring me a present (that was when I cared about such a day). But now after so many years I stopped caring about them, not entirely but also not as I used to.
They aren't bad peoples but I just can't get along with them, I am the middle child BTW, so yeah...
I have always wanted a younger brother to spoil and an older brother to spoil me, but unfortunately I wasn't blessed with neither of them. Instead I have 6 younger male cousins whom i love wholeheartedly, I placed all my affection on them, they are the cutest and loveliest troublemakers on this little world of mine hehe.
And I can feel my depression heals when I see them happily running towards me and hug me after not seeing me for one day, and they would wake their parents in the middle of the night just to call me and chat with me a little when they can't sleep, they share the secrets that they don't even say to their parents with me , and would pick the unique-looking things from anywhere ( like rocks, flowers, fabrics, toys, or even candy's) just to give it to me whenever they are coming over ( I have a whole collection of their gifts and it's my precious treasure) , and will always share anything that I give to them with me, even though they are not the generous nor the affectionate type but seeing them treating me specially really really worms my heart. I could literally die for them.
I talk unnecessarily too much when it's about them lol, sorry.
But I just want you to know how much loving your siblings and caring about them can affect them, because there is no one who doesn't want to be loved and cared about. So just give them all the love in the world because I know how much young kids nowadays need love and attention form others even if they don't show it. And I am so proud of you for being such a perfect and lovely sister, and I hope you will be like that for them forever.
I hope all the best and happiness for you <3