
idk if this is obvious.
but he is taking it slow and is thinking of dan before himself here. dan isnt well and he knows this.
to tell him everything and put all his emotions onto dan knowing the mental space dan is in is going to overwhelming for dan. saying everything and sharing his emotions at this very moment would be selfish for dan.
what dan needs right now is to heal, not an explanation. granted, knowing can help someone heal but dan hasnt even started to heal. its not the right time.
also ngl he just realized, and hes aware he fucked up. he is also scared to share the feelings he realized LAST NIGHT as well as fucking up even more

ngl i appriciate this. i cant tell you how much times ive just rollleeedddd my eyes at the amount of stories ive read that 1 conversation after the realization and BOOM suddenly, no healing, abuse?? never happened
no struggle, no backlash
just "im sorry my beloved" then "hehe i love you"
they bang and then cuddle with no lingering emotions even after 50 chapters of abuse.

DAYYYMMMMNNN
literally using this artist's art for study reference. god i havent felt this way in a while.
jealous that my hands cand draw anything close to this good this very moment
ARRRGGGHHHH got me biting my pillow from jealousy.
the art is sooo gooooddd. had to go find them on twitter. real all their other stories before but this is the final straw. literally opened like 15 tabs with just pure reference for studies.

ngl i wanna see Kaito's past life's reactions to the MC's past life's death.
like ... you were supposed to meet your lover that night only to find out the next day that he drowned. you are now trapped in an engaged marriage that was the entire reason your relationship fell apart. the entire reason you didnt break off the marriage is because you are a coward and scared and how it might affect your lover. ... only to find out that you saying pushed the one you love to khs
.. i wanna see it
AAHH i love angst
well thats an opener