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Jin Cheong-woo is crying. The man who says he didn't cry when he was born. Jin Cheong-woo is crying (excluding the tears that naturally came out when Matthew put a baguette in his mouth).
If it weren't for Matthew, Jin Cheong-woo wouldn't be living the way he is now. If he hadn't become a fugitive for murdering the director of the orphanage, if he hadn't been in a situation where he had to earn money and become powerful quickly to bring back Matthew who was waiting for him as soon as possible, he would have chosen an ordinary job instead of the mafia. If he had done that, he wouldn't have worked for Brandon and killed people, he wouldn't have been so distressed by the fact that he killed people that he wouldn't have become addicted to drugs to forget about it, and he wouldn't have felt guilty that someone's life was ruined because of the drugs he sold.
But has Jin Cheong-woo ever resented Matthew even once? Rather, he was distressed, blaming himself for ruining Matthew. He told him to stay by his side so he could take responsibility, but Matthew said, "Is that so important? I don't understand why you'd do something like that. Are you that kind of person?" I can't even imagine how much betrayal Jin Cheong-woo must feel.
Of course, I know that Matthew said that because Jin Cheong-woo was so precious to him, and he wanted him to take care of himself and not do anything dangerous anymore... Matthew has also lived a difficult life... But when I saw Jin Cheong-woo's tears for the first time, my heart weakened, so I thought about it from Jin Cheong-woo's perspective.