Monet created a topic of Love Is An Illusion

Was inseob really escaping?? Someone spoil the next scene

Monet created a topic of Dash

Is there an arc where the swimmer gets jealous

Monet created a topic of Dreadful Night

What if they all played together?? And someone just keeps on erasing/forgetting playing the game? But Doha's the one whos going to remember everything now and just keeps playing to keep Bada by his side and never end the game

Monet created a topic of Dash

Can someone spoil me the whole story? I'll forget it anyways

Monet created a topic of Alpha Trauma

YESSSSSSSSSSS GOOOO WOOYEONNNNN

Monet created a topic of Eat Me Up, My Husband

Haaaaaaaaaa...... mothercker

Monet created a topic of Dash

So who was he talking to

Monet created a topic of Engage

What chapter was it where naru discovered mei has kissed a guy before

Monet like topic of Yona and Chang-il

I think that by choosing to read a story in which a character is a prostitute, you automatically sign up for a story where most of the smut is probably noncon. I think I got over that quickly by accepting that this is the nature of this story, and that it's also probably true to unfortunate real-life situations.

Nevertheless, this manhwa does the opposite of romanticizing rape like so many of us are afraid some if not most smutty bls are doing, but it does so in such a way that Changil is able to own it and be lighthearted (dunno if that's the word I'm looking for) with the way he addresses it.

What I love the most about this is is the dialogue. The way the characters speak (mostly Changil and Yona) is fun, comedic, that there are times I forget I was reading a pretty dark story. But I think that's the beauty in it: it's such a painful story that it would have been hard to swallow without the comedy.

I don't think this is a perfect bl by any means. It was scary, painful, off-putting, and bitter, but at the same time it was also fun, relatable, and sweet. It was such a journey, that, you kind of forget that these are still youth (26 is still young, and Changil had stunted growth given his background), such pure babies (my babieees) despite what they've been through. And then you're reminded at the end that that's what they are. That's what the author was intending to end the story with: two people who are only beginning to love and to be loved (inspite of all that has happened) and isn't that beautiful?

I'm also not going to try to psychoanalyze Sangtaek and James. Sometimes people are just freaks and groomers, and sometimes they aren't meant to be more than just the horrible people that they are.

The gaejusshi's side story I recommend skipping unless you want the smut. My opinion of him won't be changed even if it's an "alternate" ending given what I know of him in the main story.

I'll give this upwards of 6 months before I forget everything about it and then I'll read it again (but let's be honest it will probably be 2 years)

Lastly the art is just gorgeous!

Edit: Just wanted to point out probably the most painful part of this story for me: Both Yona and Changil were exposed to the red-light district from young. These guys were, to some extent, numbed to the horrors of the reality they lived in. Either they were unaware or they had no other "normal" to which they can compare their experiences to and say "this is not right." like some if not most of us had the luck of having.

Yona was peeping at Changil doing SW, and didn't think much of the nature of his desires for Changil until he saw Yona being held captive and graped by Sangtaek (ch 17/19 was it? I CRIED) because it's all he's known his whole life. Suddenly he felt guilt for being just the same as the others while also recognizing that he was different. This change in his mindset is reflected in his character design, which is why he changed so drastically in such a short time. He looked like a child in the first chapters.

And Changil, my god, he hated doing SW from the beginning, but while he was in it, he thought nothing of it. It was so baffling as an outsider that he thought of it as just opening his legs or his mouth for some guy in exchange for money. It was all non-consensual ((another point that needs to be explored imo: Is SW always consensual bc you're getting paid for it?)) It was so painful when the first time we see him really actually internalize what was being done to him was when he got violated by James after Sangtaek captured him, and it was only bc he had his experience with Yona to compare it with. It's so </3

Monet created a topic of The Boundary of Fragrance

What chapter did the brother show up? Dobin was in a meeting with him and his grandma, thats what i remember

Monet created a topic of Under the Green Light

Not me screaming "JUST SHOOT HIM"
ugh

Monet created a topic of My Brother's Lover

When will this flashback end. Jesus

Monet created a topic of Alpha Trauma

Why is dohyun so fckn hot

Monet created a topic of A Bystander's Love

Why do i feel like Noah likes Rachel and not as a friend.

Monet created a topic of Yona and Chang-il

Why is the side story just shit? We have our happy ending. At least make the side stories a happy one. I feel like the side story is just making the fcking rapist 'the good one'. I guess the author favors the rapist James over our ML.
Wont be reading the side stories, just my two cents.

Monet created a topic of PLACEBO: Let's Play
Monet created a topic of Even If You Don't Love Me

Hes so fckn desperate and dow bad hahahahaha

Monet created a topic of Perfect Buddy

Not me having the widest smile reading through this chapter

Monet created a topic of PLACEBO: Let's Play

WELP. Imma... imma see myself out. See y'all when this ends... imma read again if this is completed. GOOD LUCK TO Y'ALL