Kinda remind me of the guy from Aporia with that confession. You know, except he actually deal with his needs secretly, treated his partner with the upmost respect and actually find smth that fulfill him w/o harming his partner
Idk I know this author likes trauma plots and stuff but the whole abuse under the idea of emocional turmoil of the ML is so stupid (specially with some of the hints abt his back story w the MC)
If there's anything bolder than a cocky top it has to be masoquist bottom