
That was a healing experience! Like reaching the top of a mountain and breathing in the fresh air after hours of climbing, drinking in the scenery with a bleary eyes and soft smile. It's sad how hard it is to find a BL that doesn't come with the author barely disguised fetish or blatant sexualization of mlm relationship. It's so normalized to the point manga like this became a luxury. Such a manga is what breathe life into the bl genre!

Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable. Often this quote was misused in the defense of a blatant predatorial behavior, excusing abuse and rubbing salt on a burning wound.
The story approaches the trauma of an underaged SA victim unashamedly, graphicly showing us the victim's struggle like a bizarre voyer that sickened me to my stomach. The entire side of the story where Hoshitani's eyes follow him around, sticking his gaze to Kashiwase's skin at the thought of him being secretly a girl as if him being a girl ripped away his anatomy. It felt fetishized, It felt dirty, It felt wrong... The narration of the story was in the eyes of a kid but for the reader felt like a crime. Like an invasion of privacy, a disrespect. To me, the author failed to protect what was left of Kashiwase's chastity by using Hoshitani narration(a horny middle schooler). It only cements the fact that in the sea of eyes, none of it was innocent huh?
( Remember, you don't need to see it to believe it happened)

Am I dyslexic or this story is a mess? No offense but the phasing of this story is one of the most brutal ones I've laid my eyes on. Completely illegible, why is it suddenly an omegaverse? Oh, now they're childhood friend? Can the seme stop randomly asking about the condition of the uke asshole? I know I'm being nitpicky but I can't be the only one getting a brain aneurysm after reading it. It was such a huge letdown for me! .·°՞(≧□≦)՞°·. I thought it would at least be coherent!

no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponential, logarithmic, while I gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, doggy, backwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the pool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick throbbing, fist clenching, ear ringing, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling, teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy,moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious,gushy, creamy, beastly, lip biting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, can't walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail scratching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tango ever bro could cause a nuclear bomb inside me and I'd still ride.

I don't think shin ramyun is a red flag, in alpha dominated world ig the only way to assert dominance and earn respect to/from a bunch of dickhead is pure brute force and blackmailing. The manhwa also drives the point of the dark side of ig 'chaebol' here, riddled with corruption and rotting from the inside out so to me that explains why he acted that way. In my most honest moment, I don't really like the delicate bottom and stone-cold Steve Austin pairing they've got going on but that's just me being an ass, the dynamics suit the omega verse theme so I hand up on this (surrender). Overall? It's good, love the fact that Yeonwoo have self-preservation skills and a sound mind, I also like that the author doesn't brush off his trauma, instead, showing the reader the long-lasting impact that it had on the way he views Shin Ramyun and others around him. I appreciate that the sensitivity of the subject was handled with care and was told properly without demeaning his autonomy and sexualizing the acts of rape.
The chapter where they talk about running away from home and living together hit too close to home. I used to hold my friend hand and whispered to her during boring classes about how when we're older we could buy a small apartment and get a job, anything to get away from our toxic parents. Looking back after graduating high school and currently in university while working a dead end job... it all seems so silly And wishful, back then I didn't even know the average price for 2 room apartment... But it felt nice... to have enough innocence to genuinely believe that you can grow wings and fly away
oh sweetheart :(( i hope you’re doing fine now