gzky's Things

I'm an introvert and really shy, I have difficulties to speak and joke around with new people.. so I have only 1 truly friend who I can talk with for hours and a few 'friends' from university. I don't have problems with my family. In fact, I think I'm happy the way it is, I don't feel alone, I just live my life enjooying my hobbies. but then these past few months, others people point out the fact that "i'm alone" .. and it makes me feel miserable and pathetic. Should I change ? make some effort to fit in ? or try to prove they are wrong? but then again why I feel this way if I'm truly okay..?

I should go and see a therapist haha ! anyway just give me you thoughts or experiences if you feel like it.

I'm so fucking sad. I feel alone, I'm not alone tough, don't have many friends but have 3 close ones, my family are here too. But they just don't understand me, they aren't bad, things just seem so simple for them. Everything I do fails, nothing goes well. Nothing makes me happy nowadays. Even coming here is just from habit, I just scrolls down the mangas without reading. I'm tired, I want to cry but it doesn't come out. It's like I can't allowed myself to cry but why..? I feel this sharped pain in my chest all days long, my throat squeezes in the morning when I wake up, before sleeping I feel lonely and cold.. Do you have a cure for me ?

If you had/have a crush, tell me one thing that happened with him/her and that is memorable for you. (good or bad memory haha, one that has stay with you till now)

For me, it was three years ago, when I was 17. You must know that I'm 100% asian but I live in Belgium since 5. I have a typical asian name difficult to pronounce and write by others so I always have difficulty to introduce myself. and people around me call me by my nickname even my teachers! There are few people, close to me, who choose to call me by my full name cause they know it makes me happy. And one day, I was in class, sat behind my crush, he turned around and we talked (we were pretty close) and suddenly he changed topic and said "you know I like your name, I find it so pretty, I will name my daugther like that" ! .... two days later, he and one of my friend announced me they like each other..

I still remember what he said and it still makes happy. It's a good memory for me :) and you ?? have any story to tell me ? (●'◡'●)ﾉ

Do you know Mew and Gulf ? if yes, what do you think about their relationship ? (of course just opinions, we don't have the right to establish what they are to each other). If you don't know them, go check their series : Tharntype the series. Chemistry and story line are so good ! season 2 is coming soon :) ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

I always think about love since I was young. you know the little girl dreaming about her prince but well now I'm an adult and still want to believe in that true love. but now all my expriences and stories of people around me just prove me the opposite! not one in my acquaintance have exprience that pure love (without breaking, cheating..) even my parents even though they are still together...

(sorry for my english, not my native language)