Idk

im so exausted and depressed at home, w'ant to move out i have the money and opporunity but scared of guilt and my mom needs me but she treats me like im nothing , she will deff be offended and maybe sad thay i move if she even has that emotion , i was just planing on packing my things and leaving while shes at work after my apartment is ready , maybe in september, its going to be expensive but i think its worth my sanity and i know our relationship will never be the same and she might go no contact but idc shes abusive and only talks to me when she needs somthing from me and wants me to do chores she dosnt respect my time and wont get it through her head that i have to do stuff for my own sake like uni and work and dont get me started on my social life because its non excisting, i think shes jealous of me having friends so im never and i mean never alowed to meet them and trying to convince me to drop them, she finds it humorus that my lifelong friends have stopped talking to me because i always say no to hanging out and just doing cute silly stuff with them beacuse of my sadist mother, she wouldnt give af if i kms tomorrow but i wont because i have more to live for i know my worth, tjere is moments where shes nice tk me and i feel bad for even thinking about moving out but then she always ends up reminding ne why i felt that way , i kinda regret not doing this lasg year but better late then never, she get me stufv and we travel togheter , she pays for it all not becaue shes sweet but because she wants to feek superior to mem i have the money to buy stuff but cant use it because she want to pay for everything in cash so i always have to ask for money whe going out to buy food and she will always come witg me to bug my clothes or other stuff becayse she wants to cobtrol what i wear and if something is to expensive and she dosnt want to pay for i could easily because i work hard but no i cant either, the only reason she wants to pay for my shit is so she can say that im ungratful and i have a roof over my head for free and that she has gotten me so much stuff and that she pays for trips and whatnot, i have been to alot of places and im gratful for that but i felt suffacated and anxious , she even says that she hates doing stuff with me and traveling with me i could easily stay and work or get an internship but she dosnt trust me with that either so im always dragged along like deadweight , inahve no purpose in this house then labour and i dont want to live like this anymore , i wake up anxious i go sleep anxious and i have honestly given up in life not gonna kms dont worry but she sees that im depresses but is still confused as to whats wrong with me, any tips or anyine in the same situation?(￣∇￣")

Hiii, anyone into roller skating, i just starter and was planning on getting a new pair of bauers but idk which model to get, so let me now if you recs and tips on how to get better because i suck right now but kinda know the basics of itヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~