bl that makes me cry so hard to the point that I can't breathe I already read the famous ones like 10 years where I live you the most and the one that was in coma and when he wakes up his bf was already with someone else (I forgot the title ) but I already read those
I recommend :
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/no-one-saved-me/
The story is more of plot focus than smut. It covered a lot of aspects like homophobia, racism, gaslight, murder & psychopath, the dark side of entertainment industry, drugs, etc.
It may be not everyone taste because author put a lot of conflicts. Couple itself is seke/switch.
I do find dark heaven really good, but maybe you don't like some point/aspect of the story that can't motivate you to continue to read and that's okay. Like you don't like the slow progress or just doesn't like artstyle. Story isn't sorrowful like 10 years I love you the most or a way of parting, but more like everyday struggles that could lead to depression and sadness.
there's this bl they're hush schoolers I think I remember the same wasearning how make a ring because he wants to give it to uke and there's this scene where uke said he wants a dog and their friend said he already has one and they're all looking ay seme but send didn't see it because he was busy looking at uke but uke knew what their friends are implying so turned to send and ask "paw" the seme immediately give his hand please I want to reread it I also kind of remember they had falling out because seme was kind of anxious (?) for his future because uke was like top student or something
this made me puke fuck I hope shirayuki tortures her so bad