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Wow...thanks for the spoiler╥﹏╥ I honestly don't need that much drama from some characters that I love, so Imma drop this as well, while the FL is still lovable

Same, I like drama but this is a bit too much for me... Like how can she have the same attitude after all these chapters T.T I can kinda understand her point of view but I feel so sorry for the emperor who wanted to give her everything and make her happy even if it's not with him...

I'm out kinda planning to read the novel but FML how can you hate your own child??? The sex is consensual and all how can she blame it to ML and her own child on her hating herself to be a woman. My mom is kinda like this so I fuckin hate these type of characters it hits close to home

Well I think paula or whatever I understand why she is doing that she is scared and she probably don’t wanna lost everything that she work for that so and I’m sure that she don’t hate the baby she just scared and I understand and kinda happy that she is thinking about himself first and the emperador he can wait i mean that guy have like f 4 concubines and probably they gonna be happy maybe not like a couple but like friends i mean the most important things that paula can do is being happy with or without the emperador and the kid he is going to be fine i mean is fiction the kids they always fine so don’t hate Paulina for his decision just imagine that just because the emperador loves u he is gonna take everything that you work so hard and making disappear i mean is scared right so plsss don’t hate herrrr (●'◡'●)ﾉ

She doesn't really hate the child, she just doesn't feel like it's hers because it's of royal blood and when she gives birth she treats him more like a stranger's child
She was ready to give him away to his majesty and let another woman be the mother, because she didn't want to be the empress so much
She was like "I can raise him, you can take him, whatever works for you"

I'm really trying to understand her but it's kinda fucked up like okay you dont want to be an empress then just be a mother to her without thinking like its some fuckin baggage that can be taken away and cared by somebody else just bcos it carries royal blood. I'm sorry my judgment is clouded and biased damn I'm so frustrated that the story I love completely turned 180 and touched some topics I'm sensitive about...

This might be an unpopular opinion but I kinda like that it goes against the cliche of the main couple falling in love and living a happy ever after, which naturally involves marrying, having kids and being happy about it all. But I can imagine how frustrating it is to wait for some sparks to fly after like 300 chapters lol. I wouldn't be surprised if she just ends up denying the Emperor and learns how to love her own child. I think I'd actually prefer it that way tbh.

Ye I don't like it either... If she was just like "i don't love you your majesty, so i don't wanna marry you, I'm sorry" then i would understand, but she started to cry and say all these hurtful things.... Ugh I hate it
And i feel sad she doesn't care about her child just because it's a son of the emperor (who she is supposed to adore, even if not romantically)
The emperor did so much for her and was always respectful and she couldn't even try and respond to his feelings with the same respect he showed her, instead she hurt him again and he had to apologize to her for having f e e l i n g s for her i hate it here istg

I'm ok with her denying him if she doesnt love him, I'm not okay with the way she *treated* him while rejecting him
If anyone treated me this way after I confessed I would probably be scarred for life seriously, she could think a bit about the emperor's feelings too, not go and blame him for something he can't even control (like falling in love)

Just in my opinion as the novel progressed FL started to become more and more annoying to me and this moment did it for me, I just couldn't bring myself to read further

Damn right

Ummm so did she became an empress or on of the concubines are the empress? Or like how would the concubines even reacts abt her being pregnant?? If its not a bother please answer. Thank you!

Okay so before she got pregnant the emperor had three wives. One of them have birth to a daughter and died after that, one of them lost her right to be his wife because her family betrayed the emperor (but he gave her work in the palace because she wanted to become successful and admired our FL for having accomplished so much as a woman, and the third wife divorced the emperor. FL was actually engaged to a golddigger ugly royal doctor back then, and emperor wanted to allowed that because she seemed to like him and became happier while being with him. But the emperor found out he was going to betray her and he let the FL find out about what kind of guy her fiance is. It was after she found out about it and punished him, they stayed for a night at some room and got drunk and slept together. That's when she got pregnant. So it was after the emperor "lost" all of his wives. It was for the better since FL said that if he was married she'd have to kill herself because of the pregnancy. As for the wives reaction, one of them actually knew he had a crush on FL and supported him. They never really expected love from him, and he was kind to them, so they were more like friends who had to have baby together than like wives and a husband. As for the empress, the novel isn't finished so i think that at the xahoter that it's out for noe

Shoot i accidentally clicked post lol
- I think that at the chapters that are out for now she agreed to marry him but still had doubts and one of his last wives told her to not marry if she didn't want to
She still doesn't seem to be happy because of the marriage at all
At least they named the kid, idk who names him tho because after the chapter with confession I skipped a few chapters to see if she changed in the latest chapters

Thank you!! Ahhhh,,, I just hope the FL falls for him and just get married I mean- you know

It could just be post partum depression and she literally just had a child that she never planned to have and she even thought she was infertile, also she had this child with someone who she always looked up to, this could just be her immediate reaction, her love this entire time was for the job and she probably hates the fact that if she were a straight male knight this would never have even happened and this complication would never have resulted, instead she could have a wife bear her child and keep the house warm when she returned from work and she wouldn’t be in a position where she could potentially have sex and become pregnant with the emperor who she so admire’s child, so for this first time she hates being a woman because her entire relationship with the person she serves and admires has changed forever against what she wished it were and the future she worked hard and dreamed for herself, this isn’t primarily a romance, I mean season 1 was obviously not romance, season two was packed with romance but also with character building of many characters, season 1 got us investing in Paulianna as a character, here in this season we know her, we know her struggles and her perseverance and personality, I’m not here to invest in the romance of Paulianna, I’m here for Paulianna and the trials she has ahead of her and how she deals with such life changing events that have happened to her that she never wished for, despite being reminded everyday that she is a woman she and most of everyone around her thought of her as a man and I’m sure she felt as though she was one too, so it wouldn’t be surprising that these developments and this future that has come upon her wouldn’t just completely fuck with her head, in fact it would be weird if it didn’t

Oh my. That’s really sad even after 300 chapters, FL hasn’t realized it yet. I really like this webtoon as I thought it embodies female empowerment with non-traditional characters... but I hope the story gets better ╥﹏╥

This really goes against the usual being empress n sht and honestly it's a good thing. When they spent that night together it was a one night stand. The baby she gets wasn't what she wanted. She didn't even positively want to have sex with the emperor (drunk). Plus just because the ML is nice why does she have to reciprocate his feelings? Why is she obligated to do so? In this era if she were to really marry the emperor all her feats would be lost. She'll be called a gold digger, a slt, someone who didn't deserve to receive her title and someone who seduces the emperor to get where she is now. Like wtf? You hate the MC for that? Her options are lost, bound by obligation can't abort the kid ESP since its the emperor's. No choice, bleak future. Do y'all really think everything can be fuking solved if she just gets married and becomes an empress?? Shes a knight for fks sakes. She doesn't know sht about being an empress and doesn't wanna be one (since if he marries emperor she'll become an empress). And if the ML is as good as y'all say, he'll actually respects her decision. Not force sht onto her because of his feelings. Does he not care for her happiness??? Y'all are fked up for siding with ML just because he's merely 'nice'. Being an empress isn't easy and she's trained as a knight as her whole life, feels proud of it and wants to stay that way. Why the fk would she want to become an empress who's bound by social norm and obligations??? (Have kids, serve husband, no purpose) By becoming an empress she probs can't even wield the sword anymore and be constrained for the rest of her life. It's fucked up. Reality isn't as beautiful as u fcking think for fks sakes.

Feelings can't be forced and it isn't as beautiful as everyone portrays. Her feelings are choice, she shouldnt 'fall in love' cause the ML is good to her. The ML really needs to chase her properly, not just suddenly confessing and forcing her to answer on the spot. She admires him, not loves him. It's really fked up in this era where if the guy like the ML shows basic human decency (respects her for her actual talents and sht) the FL has to reciprocate. No questions asked. Sure he's nice to her, she respects him. He doesn't really blatantly shows his feelings to her, but expects her to like him??? Her EQ is low, and he probs knows of this. Even if he wants to chase after her he needs to understand his position as the emperor, and how if he truly get married to her she's basically nothing now after all the sht she went through and achieved. If he really loves her he needs to use his fking brain, esp as a 'smart' emperor. Social norms aren't easy to change. Just because some thinks she deserves what she did, other may not think so. This'll be esp worse if she marries him for a kid she didn't want and expected (but forced to keep, wow no choice at all! I'm sure the pro life ppl are fking happy). I'm surprised she hasn't fell into a spiral of depression and hatred. Honestly if I were her, I'd hate the ML for ruining everything.

Did you read the novel at all????
If you did, you wouldn't have been able to say the emperor wasn't considerate. Everything he did was for FL's happiness and he did chase after her, she was just too oblivious to romance to notice. Now I'm not saying she should marry him against his will, to he emperor doesn't want that either. I'm saying blaming him for having /feelings/ and saying such hurtful things when he was nothing but good to her is just annoying. I myself had two situations where my friends were in love with me, but I just rejected them normally, not making them feel like shit and blaming them and making them apologize for something that wasn't their fault... Since we've been good friends.
And when they were both drunk, the FL was actually the one who came onto him first while he was confessing to her unknowingly.

Wow, I really liked this story, but I'm really going to drop it now.
This is one thing I seriously hate about k-webtoons, it happens so many times that I end up disliking the FL halfway through! The writers make great female leads at first who are smart, and strong, but by the end, they throw all that away and make them incredibly dumb, and straight out annoying to the point I never finish reading the webtoons!
I'm so disappointed this fell into that category as well.

Wow like i didn't expect this to happen. So did the emperor had other child with the concubines?

With one of them, but she was sickly so she died after giving birth. She had a daughter.

In that aspect, the FL should've been more considerate but she has low EQ. You said it yourself, it's hard for her to notice his feelings. He, who knows of this, should've been more upfront about it if he truly wanted to chase her. But both of them are bound by their duty, so he probs can't do that. The problem that I'm annoyed of is the fact that people think that since she's now pregnant and sht, she should just marry him and appreciate him. The thing is does she even love him? She doesn't. From the looks of it it's one sided. But people expect her to reciprocate it when she can't. She still has a bright future ahead of her that needs to be sacrificed just because of this mistake. She actually can abort the child but she didn't because it was her duty, especially since it's a firstborn emperor son. This problem can't be solved just with her marrying him, since it would mean she would lose everything she worked hard for. That is why for once she regretted being a woman, since now she's 'obligated' to marry him as she has his kid. She doesn't like him, and she still has a bright future ahead of her. She doesn't want to be an empress (especially since in this case it would be a poly since there's concubines, she seems pretty monogamous), she wants to be a knight. Consider how in her viewpoint, this is a very hard and hurtful choice to make. If you were in her position, you don't love the guy you had a kid with, your forced to marry him since you have the kid and is gonna lose everything (reputation, career, etc) just because of that, it's fkin horrible. So I understand how she comes to hate him for it. If he were to be more upfront, then maybe they won't even be that close and all of this wouldn't have happened (as she admire not love him). She's a knight, the first female knight. And he's an emperor. Their relationship is bound to fail, especially with how misogynistic and sexist their society is. If she married him, she would worth nothing in everyone's eyes as they would see that her achievement were given to her, not that she worked hard for it herself. The emperor at that moment (asking to marry) was probably driven by his emotions. But first and foremost, hes an emperor, and he should consider the consequences of his actions (FL losing everything, marriage won't bring her happiness). In my case it was a mistake to clarify that FL did no wrong (as you said she was the one to come to him). It was a mistake on her part for being irresponsible. I know feelings can't be forced, his emotions can't be helped. I'm criticizing him as he is an emperor. He can't be blamed for his feelings, but he should consider the reality properly with those feelings. It's unrealistic to think that just because they have a kid together and he loves her, she would marry him and would sacrifice everything so he could be happy (marrying the woman she loves). Plus, people may also not agree with him marrying a knight so I think theyre bound to be unhappy, especially since it's a forced marriage (if it were to really happen). If he wants her to like him, he needs to be more upfront and truly, properly, chase after her. FL can't truly be blamed for her obliviousness as obviously, he knows of this trait yet isn't really upfront about his feelings for her.

Bruh I literally wrote "Now I'm not saying she should marry him against his will, since the emperor doesn't want that either. I'm saying blaming him for having /feelings/ and saying such hurtful things when he was nothing but good to her is just annoying."

I agree with what you wrote above, I don't agree with her being, to put it bluntly, shitty with her response. I don't blame her for not loving or wanting to marry him. I blame her for blaming HIM and making him feel like his love is something he should be blamed for and sorry for. I blame her for not being even at least considerate about his feelings while EXPECTING him to be considerate and respectful about HER feelings and needs. He was always considerate about her feelings, but she couldn't do it this one time when it was the most important and basically caused unnecessary guilt and shame for him. That's annoying.

I agree that its annoying LOL But I cant rlly hate her, cuz well... yeah, the emperor wasnt wrong
But guys, is he hurt? Yeahh, he is rlly hurt and sad... But she is feeling even worst, so when you are depressed and having a crisis sometimez you are insensitive, its normal to react this way at first
Guys, please... she was mean, but he is a mature, smart and respectable emperor and she is just an orfan that doesnt know what a family is and she suddenly found herself pregnant, alone, judged by society and cant be herself anymore cuz... well, she defined herself just as a knight her whole life, is she isnt a knight what is she? And yeah, she is alone cuz even if the emperor is there wanting to help her, sometimes you need a friend to talk with and cry to understand what happening and process everything, and you cant process it when the sorce of your anxiety is there LOL is he even the sorce? Well she didnt process it yet cuz didnt have time, everybody has their own time to think about things
Anyway guys, dont just hate her and feel sorry for him... She deserves some empathy as well

She had my empathy for more than 300 chapters and my patience just kinda ran out... If I can't sympathize with the main character anymore then I'm not gonna enjoy the story at all and well, that's a shame, but I can't do anything about how she turned out. I knew she could be cruel, but she really outdid herself in the lastest chapters... And I like slow burn, but even for me it's taking a bit too long. I came for romance, not for a hurt no comfort story, so I guess it's just not for me.
I'm not telling anyone to drop this or hate her - I'm just saying if you're like me and don't like this kinda stuff happening, just save your time and don't waste it like I did. If you like this kinda stuff, good for you, don't drop it.

In all honesty if she was engaged to someone else and was liking him then found out he was gonna betray him had a one night stand with the emperor who lost his wives I mean it doesn't give her room to fall in love either. So I understand her not loving him at this point. If you've only ever seen someone as a friend then had a random drunken one night stand then got pregnant run away and not spent time with the friend for ages after the fact it's normal to not be in love. I mean now after she returns she can fall in love because she will spend time with him with these new thoughts and feelings.

Same!!!

i totally get why you feel this way, but don't you think this is interesting? i've never read a manga/manhwa with this kind of female lead. so many women irl feel like her - the moment they fall in love, they will like they've lost at life. that child is not at fault ofc but you can't deny that he was not born out of love but an accident.. a one-night stand where the two parents have a wildly imbalanced power dynamic, since one of them is an emperor.

i had this buried in my disorganized library, but after reading this post i am glad i re-found it and look forward to catching up!

I'm going to say this one last time, I understand her not falling in love since it's something you can't choose, I just don't like her trampling over her savior's feelings and I can't relate to her at all when it comes to empathy since she has almost none and it's really frustrating for me when I read. It's good if you like where this is going. Read then. I wrote this comment not to insult the work, but to warn people who dislike stuff like this as well, so they won't lose time reading this to only drop it in the end, like I did.

Urgh stories with issues involving kids get to me a bit too much. Kids are a soft spot for me. I don’t mind stories where it’s established in early chapters that the story will feature some form of questionable treatment towards a kid. But having it brought all a sudden 300 chapters later ain’t my thing. I don’t really give a damn about the FL and the prince and their debating about their relationship. But the poor kid man. Think I’ll drop this one.

This I also agree I don't think I will drop it as I want to see what happens but the kid I feel bad for.

Tbh I get what your saying and to see that lack of empathy towards her child gets me

Ikr. But thats the power of the ML

Idk man it's like, Lucas said this hundreds of years ago whereas Ezekiel said it in real time. In my opinion it's not something he really needed to mention at all? It added nothing to their conversation and only served to hurt Jeanettes feelings/give her motives to trouble Athy.

But then again I'm pretty bias since I just have so much love for Lucas, Ezekiel is just too plain and boring.

Agreed honestly tbh all of the male leads here are jerks lol but very good looking jerks. I mean what you expect? Readers will awalys be like that biased towards their character. But on the part tho I agree with what FireFistLaw12 said was kinda harsh I mean it was still good tho cuz like finally someone who tell a whole truth to jennette rather keeping her in the dark but could have at least phrase it more nicely .

I'm happy that more people are able to read it here but it's really not fair to not include credits with people who worked on this dj...

For anyone who cares, these are the missing credits ╥﹏╥

Scans: Kura @kurasuchi
Translation: Euterpe
JP Proofreading: Hymnia, Melpo
ENG Proofreading: Mia @artemisia_hq
Cleaning: Kura @kurasuchi
Typesetting: Mia @artemisia_hq
Cover: Kiri @Lyienne
QC: Kura @kurasuchi

Done by hq scans. Site: https://hqscans.co.vu/

Thanks for listening, that's all

Thank you!!

Omg thank goodness you said it here! I really appreciate their hard work, thank you so much for bringing us these good reads!

Thank YOU for crediting them!!

I prefer Ijekiel than Lucas too.

You're not the only one ;)

I just can't get the chemistry between Lucas and Athy yet. Idk why. Even though I like Lucas too

they look really good together aesthetically

I cant get enough of those ლ(´ڡ`ლ)