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Slowish chapter but am excited for the next lol, the author really knows how to make suspense with all this edging she’s done. Also the callbacks are just so tastefully done. I love the Brett and alcohol symbolism/motif. How they’re both Hayden’s firsts so to say and kind of a corrupting force in a sense, but at the same time alcohol is known to loosen people up and make things fun, which you can say is what Brett is to Hayden somewhat. The whole “burning down your throat” callback is mwah, chefs kiss.
I want to know so bad about Hayden’s dream, I feel like there’s so much you can take from it. From Hayden being on a stage with the stage lights shining on him to Brett being the only one watching, not even mentioning the blurred out words. It’s such an interesting dream knowing that Hayden has no interest in being an actor, but in a way plays the role Brett puts him in. It’s fascinating that this is what his subconscious brings up espc since this is a rut induced dream. I really can’t figure out the deeper meaning to it tho, I’m stuck even so, this chapter is a lot of Hayden’s psyche which I enjoy even if it is very subtle
But on a less nerdy side of things, god Brett is so cute even when he looks incredibly fucked up by Hayden LMAO I love his attitude even after he had been brutalized lol. Also I hope Hayden knows how to clean well bc his house would fucking STINK i would not want to enter after his rut must be a pain to get out of the couch