
I guess only people who experienced something similar to Yatora can truly understand it... I was so heartbroken when I learned that one person (we used to study together) who's art style I admired so much, stopped doing art altogether. When we were in art college I thought we all were going to become artists (painters), but in the end only few of us did (including me ofc)
Besides "loosing" all the art pieces you could marvel upon in future, there is this part about validation? that like no, I'm not crazy to go all in, and it's not a doomed path that leads to failure most of the time you should avoid

Yoonwon can't say he likes Dae bc his mother rejected him. As long as he doesn't reveal his feelings and is not actually in a relationship with Dae, Dae can't reject him. If Dae rejects him it's like... this is going to confirm that yeah, Yoonwon is an unworthy piece of shit indeed, not needed by his mom, not needed by anyone. He is trying to protect himself from pain. He needs to do something about his trauma instead though ofc

TRUE ! his trauma is so deep rooted that the only way he thinks he can keep someone that he obviously loves is by owning them or treating them like a “pet”. but now he’s been “abandoned” even though they weren’t technically together, which basically shatters his entire belief system. maybe i’m reading too deep into their characters, but it’s interesting how complex yoonwon is, especially with how he deals with his trauma.

this hurt. I was hoping Hirano is demi. I think author should have hinted that this won't be a typical bl romance beforehand.
I'm triggered bc I'm on ace spectrum and I have rejected countless ppl saying umm sorry I don't think this is going to work out after all. I didn't realize how painful it could be until I fell for an aro person myself and it was his turn to play with my heart, "to figure himself out" at my expense
hmm I guess the world really needed this manga. have I read it earlier mb smth would have clicked faster for me
he reached the second hole iykyk