Even if Cheongsun had found the letter 10 years ago, the most they could’ve had was a short long distance relationship. 10 years ago, Cheongsun was very insecure about his class and family status, it’s the reason he broke up with his first girlfriend. He saw Gonghyun as living in a completely different world than him and eventually it would’ve eaten away at their relationship at that young age, especially with the stressors of school and finding a job. They both needed the 10 years to become more financially independent and self-assured. The reason journal was only shown at the ending is because it doesn’t matter that much in the plot, it doesn’t change things. Now that they’re finally together, they have the rest of their lives to tell each other secrets and feelings they couldn’t have expressed when they were younger.
This was already posted as part of the Bara Boom Anthology, chapters 5-7: https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/adult_bl_shorts_bara_boom/
Not surprising the artist is Red Peach, this seems like it’ll fit right in Monthly Chest lol. This is one of those turn of your brains and don’t expect good plot/characterization type short stories.
I actually prefer when they don’t put mpreg in BL so I’m not mad at the ending. I don’t mind reading mpreg once in a while but generally I don’t want to think about all the stressors, health risks and pain related to pregnancy and childbirth when I’m reading fluff/smut.
I read the ending spoiler, not sure if it’s true or not, but even if one of them passed away, this wouldn’t be a tragic story for me. Death is an inevitable condition of human life. Ki-chan and Shuji had 30 beautiful years together, full of cherished memories and comfort, this manga is a celebration of their love and life together.