In the start I always thought mc as an amazing person cause of his unwavering, unconditional love...
But at this point I think maybe mc got the wrong idea I'm not sure why but at some point in our lives we have some kind of belief that we kinda want to embody and uphold
And well I think MC's love for that shit is this kind of belief
Maybe he love him at first
He love the kind shit from the past
And maybe he is upholding the belief that he loves him even if he is shit cause he wants to believe that there's still the kind past thingy inside the shit
But he doesn't really like him anymore he just wanna believe that he love him still
Idk know though
It's just a theory
I'd like to sell sleep but I know well that I'm the one needing it considering I'm typing this comment at 1am
Lol