Eme's Favorite

I said this before but I'll say it again, Ein and Leto definitely are the most attractive and the hottest couple in yaoi history (to me). It's not only about look bcz yes there are probably more handsome or pretty character from other manhwas out there. But it's more about the way they exude so much charisma(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶). Both are also a very strong character, not every day you'll see lovers who are both equally strong and charismatic specially in yaoi ╮(￣▽￣)╭ . And lastly, their chemistry(๑˃ꇴ˂๑). Their chemistry literally out of the roof, like how can 2d manhwa characters has more chemistry than some rl couples ??╮(￣▽￣)╭

This argument/fight was bound to happen. Going back to the start of their relationship, you have a teen alpha who suddenly found his fated mate. Seems great? Not really. Looking back, you have a TEENAGER finding his fated mate after being insecure about his 2nd gender for years. Until then, Hazuki hadn't been all into playing the role of an alpha bc of his past experiences and suddenly, finding his fated mate, he wants to fill that protective and reliable alpha role. He pushed himself to mature (and it's been explicitly said so by Naoto as well that he(N) feels that Hazuki is more mature than him despite his age). Hazuki wanted to be someone who protected and cared for his new family, pushing himself to do his best. That's great and all, but he was young and didn't have the same experiences as Naoto so he was always playing a catch up game in terms of experience. His lack of experience and perceived capabilities - especially when Minato came along - really showed compared to Naoto and Hazuki had to deal with those insecurities that came with feeling like he cannot protect or help. We saw him hide and withdraw because he felt that he was being a bad partner and parent by being unable to even hold his baby. They were able to temporarily patch up (not fix entirely) the issue then because Naoto got through Hazuki's insecurities by explaining his previous lack of knowledge and own insecurities about being a single teen parent. Great, but Hazuki still struggles with this gap between him and Naoto. After that they seem fine, and they are okay because they can communicate and help each other out. However, Minato is growing and he's reached the age where he is being a little rebel. Hazuki isn't prepared, they now also have a third child to care for, and that gap is apparent again. Adding to this insecurity, is the fact that Hazuki is not trusting Naoto by doubting if Naoto would stay with him if he found someone more reliable. Naoto of course wouldn't but Hazuki believes that his perceived lack of ability to help Naoto will push him away and that Naoto would find it easy to move on from him. At this moment, things are made worse bc Otoha (if I remember his name right) is good with kids - one of the biggest failings for Hazuki. Hazuki needs to read books and blogs and learn from other parents, but this guy? He appears to be a natural with kids. What Hazuki doesn't see however, is that Otoha most likely has had years of experience with kids, so of course he knows a lot. However, Hazuki's insecurities and his jealousy and his lowering confidence in himself is building up. And in this new chapter we see him blow up - which is something new because he's tried to hide when he feels insecure before - at hearing Naoto compliment someone else on something he has been struggling with. It's not good and I get what he was trying to say, but he did not say anything good. He ended up victim blaming, which of course hurt Naoto because 1) it was a terrible traumatic time for him and 2) Naoto most likely feels betrayed by Hazuki who once told him that he loved him for who he was and would not look down on him for being an Omega. Naoto has been told repeatedly that omega are at fault for whatever happens to them, but Hazuki was different and based on his reaction, Naoto feels a deep anger towards Hazuki now because he used those feelings and experiences against him. I know they're going to work through this, but it is also true that this was bound to happen. Hazuki isn't a bad partner or parent, he always puts his family first and is an active parent. He's never left Naoto to deal with the kids alone on purpose and he takes on doing chores and childcare actively. Naoto, and others, are amazed by how hard Hazuki works to take care of his family while learning to take over his mother's company. In this chapter, Naoto and Shizuku are excited to prepare a surprise birthday for him and there are no negative comments about him napping because they believe he deserves to rest. Naoto was probably even bragging about how good Hazuki is to him. Everyone sees it but Hazuki. He wakes up and immediately scolds himself for napping when he was only supposed to put Aoi to sleep, he worries about not giving Naoto or his mother in law resting time. He believes he should be able to give others rest when he himself needs it, and he sees it as a failure not to do so. He's just really insecure, and honestly I get that. He feels he isn't living up to his role and that he is not being a good parent or partner because of it, when he is already a great parent and partner. He's young, younger than Naoto, so of course he doesn't have all the experience and knowledge that Naoto does and he isn't giving himself grace. He is seeing himself as a failure but at the same time he doesn't want to admit it and he's burst out now, saying the wrong things and taking his frustration of himself out on Naoto.

Poor Shizuku, she left with her parents happily together and will return to them having fought. She's definitely going to be hurt by that. I just hope this fight doesn't last too long, my heart can't take it. ╥﹏╥

As a former person diagnosed with an invalid emotion disorder (Alexithymia), it's just fascinating to see how well written and drawn the character is. Everyone might see him as a brat (I can't deny that he really was one). However, the depth and complexity of his emotions, as portrayed in the story, make him a truly compelling character. Despite his bratty behavior, the character's journey allows for a deeper understanding of and empathy towards individuals with emotional disorders like Alexithymia.


He tried his best to convey his feelings, and he's still trying to express and say out loud such complex feelings for Enutak. Some may find the couple boring, but for me, as someone with a similar disorder, it's such a wave of emotion after emotion that someone like us can love someone and feel loved by someone too.

I'm so proud of Dojae and can't thank enough Euntak for being an understanding person despite Dojae's complex personality. Dojae's struggle with Alexithymia is not only depicted through his difficulty in expressing emotions but also through his efforts to understand and navigate his own feelings. Through his relationship with Enutak, Dojae learns to appreciate the importance of emotional connection and the power of vulnerability. I'm just simply overjoyed.

Messing with wrong guy’s car, following random strangers to unknown places (not once but twice), going exactly to the place multiple people warned him about, oh and that time he grabbed a gun and just raced all the way to save Gren or whatever, flirting with freaking Ross, going to meet him alone, I’m probably forgetting things but he’s written as someone guarded, always in his head thinking about being cautious and what he learned from his childhood, making assumptions, jumping to conclusions all on his own but when it comes down to actions he keeps getting himself into hot shit over and over precisely because he doesn’t think before acting. Such a himbo I love him.

Who's who: groups & characters in the story –
Group:

The Mercifuls- a powerful gang that deals internationally in drugs (crystal meth) and weapons. Currently the top gang in the New York City (NYC) area

Royal Roader: an automobile-themed casino. Also used to launder money (hide the origins of money gained illegally- in this case, cash gotten through drug deals). Owned by Ross Trautvein

Mass- a computer-savvy money laundering gang. All members but one were killed during a drug transaction between The Mercifuls and Ross Trautvein. The lone survivor and the one who killed his fellow gang members was Gren Heims, former foster-brother to Shingun Moon. The cash they were transporting went missing. Later, it was revealed that CIA operatives confiscated the money before police arrived on-scene

Lump Spark: an automotive service center. The CIA used the shop as bait to draw in the owner of Royal Roader. Jake Gillan helped Shin get his job there

CIA: Central Intelligence Agency- a civilian foreign intelligence service of the federal government of the United States, officially tasked with gathering, processing, and analyzing national security information from around the world, primarily through the use of human intelligence and conducting covert action through its Directorate of Operations [Wikipedia]

Translation of the above bullshit definition of the CIA: a spy agency that will do pretty much anything drastic if they feel something threatens the security of the US

NYPD: New York Police Department. A fine law enforcement institution with several corrupt members being paid-off by the Mercifuls, Ross Trautvein, AND the CIA. This is what happens when politicians cut budgets

Unnamed motorcycle gang: a rival gang that was attacked and had members killed by the Mercifuls. Led by man named Mateo

The Calvin Skylars: another rival gang. Not much info on them yet, but The Mercifuls are their enemy

Costco: fifth largest retailer in the world. A good place to buy personal hygiene products, slippers, and lubricant in bulk. Also known for giving out free samples, though Shin and Jake only got samples of each other


Characters:

Shingun "Shin" Moon- orphaned and brought up in the foster care system. His drug-addicted foster-parents scammed the system to get payments for fostering children, but neglected and abused the kids. Shin later turned an interest in cars into well-paying job, but his ex-boyfriend had him arrested and then black-balled from the automotive industry. This left him unable to get employment and led to him being back out on the streets, hustling for money. That is how he met Jake- he tried to hustle him

Jake "Jay" Giilan- a high level member of The Mercifuls, but he is also an undercover CIA agent working secretly to take down gangs and to root out corrupt government officials. He is known as a cold-blooded killer, but he only kills members of gangs as part of the CIA’s mission to eliminate them. Jake's assignment is to infiltrate and provoke gangs into taking each other out. Shin currently doesn't know that Jake is a spy

Benille- Mercifuls underboss, he also has a side fashion business and dresses flashy. He is higher level than Jake in the gang. Jake’s strategies that put The Mercifuls on top and his willingness to kill without hesitation is why he is trusted by Benille. Recently, Benille noticed Jake acting suspiciously out of character (appearing in a soiled shirt, being late when he is NEVER late, etc.) and gave him a not-so-subtle warning. He may not look like it, but Benille is extremely dangerous

Ross Trautvein- spoiled son of a wealthy politician and owner of Royal Roader. He is also a major drug dealer, with clients in high level positions- one of them being Senator Connor. He is also bribing government officials along with members of the NYPD to help cover up his illegal activities

Harry Wilde: front man for the Royal Roader. A pervert who has a thing for dark-haired men. Both Shin and Bukovitz shudder whenever Harry-- on second thought, let's just forget about Harry

Caesar- also a CIA agent, working undercover as a mechanic at Lump Spark. She reports on any activity involving Ross Trautvein. Jake is also using her to keep tabs on Shin, but her genuine concern over Shin's well-being bothers Jake, who feels she is getting a little too close to Shin

Izmel- a bearded man with a forehead scar, he's another CIA agent who is also working undercover as a member of The Mercifuls. He appears to have the position of being one of Benille’s bodyguards, so he is able to gather valuable information on the gang

Rolfe- CIA Director. She is Jake, Caesar, and Izmel’s boss

Gren Heims- Shin’s former foster-brother. As foster children, he and Shin were used as drug runners for small gangs (passing drugs and bringing back payment). Gren found gang life attractive and unlike Shin, he embraced it, becoming addicted to drugs. He’s flitted between gangs, most of them violent, and has done jail-time for blackmail and robbery. Like Jake, Gren is a cold-blooded killer. Unlike Jake, he kills to benefit himself. Gang-life environment and drug use has profoundly damaged Gren both mentally and physically

Liam- owner of Lump Spark. Loves money and free donuts. Has no clue the CIA is using his shop for their operations

Oren- Lump Spark mechanic. His physical appearance reminds Shin of Gren

Bukovitz- Lump Spark mechanic. Bearded, huge and intimidating, Shin thought he was a Merciful gang member at first. A gentle man who loves dogs and elephants

Hosung- one of Shin’s friends, he’s a butcher and resident of Chinatown in NYC. He’s also an informant for the NYPD and has a circle of hacker friends. Shin did something to save his life once, so feels he needs to pay Shin back a “long time”. He is currently helping Shin find out who and what Jake really is

Mateo- Leader of the unnamed motorcycle gang. His brother was killed in a past attack by The Mercifuls, but in some deal unbeknownst to The Mercifuls, Jake spared the life of his brother’s son, so Mateo owed a debt to Jake. Jake used the debt to have motorcycle gang arrange a drug transaction with Ross Trautvein, whose reputation as a dealer is now in shreds. Mateo’s gang intends to get their revenge on The Mercifuls, but they aren’t strong enough to pull it off alone. If they combine their forces with Ross Trautvein and another gang called the Calvin Skylars, they’ll have an even chance of winning. Jake is doing what he can to bring that gang war on

Senator Connor- faceless (so far) politician who has illegal dealings with Ross Trautvein and is now a new target for the CIA

Austin Mel- Shin's ex-boyfriend, who had Shin arrested for assault. Shin punched Austin for trying to force him into doing a sex act he didn't want to do. He's a backstory character and if he knows what's good for him, he'll stay that way

Hot Dog Man- always seen holding a hot dog in front of his open-wide mouth, but never seen actually eating it. Possibly searching for bigger hot dog

Some of y’all haven’t dealt with an addict in real life and it shows. There is absolutely nothing Shin can do to help Gren in the state that he’s in right now. The fact that Gren was blaming Shin for his actions and was talking about killing a person together and running away, shows that Gren is not on the right state of mind.

Shin is being responsible is keeping his distance (which is sometimes the only thing you can do for an addict) and protecting Jay by not talking about him. Because Shin knows that Gren is Jay’s weakness and will cause harm to Jay. And Shin cares for Jay so he wants to keep him as safe as he can, you know with Jay being a gangster.

I will repeat this until the end of time. You can’t help a person who doesn’t want help. Or isn’t ready to get help. Gren isn’t in s place where he wants help. He isn’t even in a place for rational thought. There is nothing Shin can do right now to help. Giving in would mean enabling Gren even more. The best thing for Gren is to stay in rehab and work on himself but from the looks of it, he doesn’t want to get better so he’s probably going to fuck up Shin’s life somehow.

Chapters 22 - 50 are in the PRESENT TIME. Zhan Zheng Xi is in College and Jian Yi, who has been missing for 3 years, is now back and apparently living with him(?) as he makes up high school. The only background that we're given is that Jian Yi went missing the 2nd day of his and Zhan's first year of high school.

Chapters 51+ are set in the PAST. They're a flashback to Zhan's and Jian Yi's third year of Middle School (yes they are 15 and middle schoolers so calm your horny down a notch lol). We see the build up of the friendship between the four boys and their individual relationships. Everything we're reading now is building up to their middle school graduation and eventually the day that Jian Yi disappears.

EXCEPTIONS -- Some of the SPECIAL Chapters, such as Ch. 224 - The Christmas Special, are also set in the PRESENT. Which is why we see that the boys look a bit different, and in this specific chapter Jian Yi mentions that everyone else is in college but him (bc he has to make up high school).

As things have developed I'm sure the creator probably didn't realize this would be such a BIG project or so popular so they've probably have added and developed things in the PAST chapters, that don't translate well to the PRESENT chapters ( such as Zhan's Present personality in the early chapters being a bit more snappy and irritable, while his current Past personality actually shows him be a bit more laid back and mellow). DON'T look too much into it. Just enjoy things as they develop. The author may go back and revise the Present chapters to match things up a bit more.

Can someone please recommend more manga's like this, it's literally soo good and jusgt AIDSFOJSFJSWWDJPIWDJ

where do i buy physical copies

damn I wanna be fucked like that

Euijoon you lucky bitch. I wish that was me

LISTEN. all I'm sayin, is that when this man learns how to eat ass????? it's OVER ladies and they-dies. O V E R.

DID YOU KNOW?
blue whale's anus can stretch approximately
three and a half feet making it second biggest asshole after red hair guy (gold digger)

Links to all the end pictures:

Happy birthday Fundashi-kun:
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hidamari_ga_kikoeru/

Happy birthday Moon Dragon:
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/page_o_mekuru_sono_mae_ni/

Happy birthday Yumi:
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/baker_baker_paradox/

Do not:
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hinekure_chaser/

Like I just need something light and prescious in my life to read, unfortunately ojisama to neko is so small

Does anyone know where to read the novel? Pls :”<

Can someone tell me where else to read this in english, i wanna read ahead