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relena4 July 4, 2025 7:33 pm

This is an essay into jjk's fucked up mind. You're warned.

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Basically the story establishes pretty early on that a part of jjk is obsessed about power, and kim dan is a pawn he needs to keep being "perfect".

...So, what depths can jjk get to, in order to maintain that ideal image he NEEDS for himself?

Like, we already saw that he can't get it hard if its not kim dan, so he won't hire anyone else to take care of his jinx, despite saying that he could. Which is clown behavior: he feels obvious pleasure in thinking of this whole "kim dan thing" in an impersonal way but its obvious he's backed into a corner.

I wonder, how much can kim dan actually get away with by telling him "no" at this point in the story...?

jjk already has set himself for his return, kim dan or not. We see him accept the offer for a match and that brings him to a whole new low: he gets migraines again and his anger boils over at kim dan. I believe this to be his desire for power that forces him to get back to his old life, and for some reason, jjk can't accept any change to this old routine of his.

Which is interesting, bc it seems like jjk NEEDS things to unfold in a certain way to feel powerful and in control of his life: which means no string attached sex, being a champion and being violent as hell.

And kim dan forces him to be soft, tied down, and taking care of him rn means not accepting any matches; jjk himself tells us he can SLEEP now. The migraines though come back once he accepts a new match. So basically its like jjk's mind right now is REBELLING to the kind of life he's been living in "bumfuck nowhere". A kind of life that seems good for him though.

Its like... jjk's mind is trying to protect him from something in a very dysfunctional way, and it's doing it by essentially trying to eject kim dan from his life. Kim dan is dangerous. Kim dan could hold the key to jjk getting badly hurt.

We dont know jjk's background, we just know that rn he's an asshole and that jumin baek knew him as a child. We're also shown a black void regarding him unworthy as a whole. Was he,,, in a position of weakness? So much that he folded and tried to become an alpha male as much as he could...?

He said he's never sucked a cock before and in the start of the story he doesn't define himself as "gay", he tells us simply that his jinx needs him to sleep with men right before a match and asks kim dan if he finds it strange.

Also Jinx is following BJ Alex's structure to a T, so far. Do yall think that mingwa will eventually steer away from this path? Or do yall think that at the end of this story there will be no way that jjk can be freed from his toxic self aside from stopping being a MMA fighter...?

We're on for a hell of a ride, guys

    justwannaread July 5, 2025 2:50 am

    Mingwa's really about having tops with traumas I get it and it's okay cos she resolved it well in BJ Alex and here I hope too. What's juicy about this is, is that doc also has stuff on his own where he's probably on a point where he could give a fuck about other stuff. And yes, this is very BJ Alex. S1 was okay but I was disappointed that when S2 started, the parallels were becoming too obvious. People would even put a side by side of BJ Alex and Jinx scenes. A lot of people were okay, I was mostly not because I was expecting much from her from a story point but I've come to let it go. I just reread S2 in preperation and noticed that S2's colouring/lighting made the entire season very dramatic/moody which I've come to appreciate. She either has a good storyboard artist or that's her. I mean the art is already chef's kiss. I just hope she eventually gets better at writing stories. And she'll be a complete powerhouse (tho she already is)

    egoist July 5, 2025 3:09 am

    thank u for this genius analysis that most won’t understand. love how thoroughly you picked him apart, it’s perfect.

    relena4 July 5, 2025 6:05 am
    Mingwa's really about having tops with traumas I get it and it's okay cos she resolved it well in BJ Alex and here I hope too. What's juicy about this is, is that doc also has stuff on his own where he's probab... justwannaread

    I found BJ Alex to be rather weak in writing, the whole "alex realizes he's in love" happened too quickly and in a rather clichéd way. I really hope Mingwa's intention is to improve on BJ Alex by writing Jinx,,, but so far it seems like jjk will need to stop competing (just as alex needed to stop being a BJ) in order to make space for change and kim dan in his life.

    I think it's a waste, honestly.

    relena4 July 5, 2025 6:10 am
    thank u for this genius analysis that most won’t understand. love how thoroughly you picked him apart, it’s perfect. egoist

    Thank youuuuu! Im happy someone appreciated! I find this story very interesting, i just hope it wont turn out to be clichéd at all <3

    kishibe July 5, 2025 1:16 pm

    I've read jjk and I thought that you're referring to Jujutsu Kaisen lolll. Why did I forget his full name...

    kishibe July 5, 2025 1:18 pm

    u cookin' with this bro

    relena4 July 5, 2025 5:59 pm
    u cookin' with this bro kishibe

    thank you! <3333 i cant remember his name either, im the old man calling him jaegeng

    dkododşepdlels July 6, 2025 8:44 am

    He definitely has some trauma about strenght. I'm barely a casual reader so my bad if i miss things but here's what i think:

    His trauma is definitely related to being weak, i think even baek jumin(?) said something implying he was a wuss when they were younger.I think it involves him being unable to stop a bad situation involving a man, and blaming himself by being weak.The jinx is obviously a power thing, but he has to "press down" a man specifically for his match to go well.

    Some of the people i've seen that are insecure to the point of mental illness act exactly like him; agressive, overconfident, lacking empathy, perfectionist. Because their worth is so fragile, they instantly bark with a whataboutism to anyone who dares to touch it. That's why he is so obsessed with his image and streak he is even willing to ignore his injuries working himself to failure.

    But now his persona cracked. He lost his streak. Even if he were to climb up the ranks again and go on a bigger streak than before the match he lost exist, that's why he fell apart. So his brain is on crisis mode not knowing what to do, desperately fighting for control over SOMETHING, but he is not as headfirst in his approach as we was before, instead getting hung up on random things because he is somewhat on a state of paralysis.

    dkododşepdlels July 6, 2025 8:49 am
    He definitely has some trauma about strenght. I'm barely a casual reader so my bad if i miss things but here's what i think: His trauma is definitely related to being weak, i think even baek jumin(?) said somet... dkododşepdlels

    He constantly snaps at dan for getting drunk to avoid his problems, not taking care of himself, not being perfect but it's exactly what he did. And he doesn't know how to fix him other than getting mad at him because that's all he knows, that's how he approaches himself and since his mind can't handle the stress of blaming himself right now it's dan ruining his perfection. that's the thing he has to fix, so he can escape this emergency.

    Why he is chill with old people? No clue. Maybe he had a close relationship with and elder figure when he was a kid, maybe he doesn't feel the need to prove himself. Maybe both

    relena4 July 7, 2025 11:22 am
    He definitely has some trauma about strenght. I'm barely a casual reader so my bad if i miss things but here's what i think: His trauma is definitely related to being weak, i think even baek jumin(?) said somet... dkododşepdlels

    yeah, i agree! (=・ω・=)

    In his case, I think we can separate neatly between mind and body; jjk's mind is what strives for him to go back to the ring and leave kim dan behind, while his body is what is physically blocking him from going this way, by getting him migraines and making him impotent.

    What you describe is totally his state of mind rn. He blames it all on kim dan and it's unbearable how much of his conscious mind is taken up by those thoughts. But luckily jjk is also a man that feels through his body and we can tell how many feelings he has for kim dan bc he unconsciously ACTS like he cares.

    I think he fell apart bc of his disconnect with his body's reactions. First his inability to stop in front of the physical pain of his injury, then his inability to place worth on kim dan's disappearance after being hurt. Kim dan is the type of man who needs his hard work to be recognized and he cant have that with jjk, who blames stuff on ppl bc he cannot be honest with himself. Jjk does trust kin dan, but he didnt hesitate on blaming his injury on him.

    i wonder what it'll took for jjk to get rid of this dysfunctional defense mechanism of his.

    Choco-cookie July 7, 2025 8:42 pm

    Thank you finally someone w reading comprehension, holy shit that is an interesting perspective of his head trying to fight each other

    Choco-cookie July 7, 2025 8:49 pm

    Thank you finally someone w reading comprehension, holy shit that is an interesting perspective of the two sides of his head trying to fight each other

    relena4 July 7, 2025 9:24 pm
    Thank you finally someone w reading comprehension, holy shit that is an interesting perspective of his head trying to fight each other Choco-cookie

    Thank you! It was all Mingwa <333

relena4 June 30, 2025 2:50 pm

IM SORRY CHAT, I CAVED

i found the raws till chapter 30 and bought the anthology to get chapter 31 and 32.

You have no idea of my suffering right now, THIS story is pure angst, if you care about the main ship. Pls someone hold me ;___________;

    floripondia June 30, 2025 4:17 pm

    Hi, where did you read the raws?

    relena4 June 30, 2025 4:22 pm
    Hi, where did you read the raws? floripondia

    it's super painful, beware

    papermom June 30, 2025 6:22 pm
    it's super painful, beware relena4

    Where did you find the anthology? :D

    relena4 June 30, 2025 7:43 pm
    Where did you find the anthology? :D papermom

    oh, i went to the author's twt! ill link:
    https://www.fupro-comics.com/detail/1252/501346/?fc=true
    there's a free trial so you can read ch.31 and 32
    afterwards its 5eur a month (▰˘◡˘▰)

    papermom June 30, 2025 9:13 pm
    oh, i went to the author's twt! ill link: https://www.fupro-comics.com/detail/1252/501346/?fc=truethere's a free trial so you can read ch.31 and 32afterwards its 5eur a month (▰˘◡˘▰) relena4

    Thnkies

    ten June 30, 2025 11:05 pm

    spoilers please? .. i might regret asking this

    relena4 July 1, 2025 2:53 am
    spoilers please? .. i might regret asking this ten

    i sent you a message with the spoilers <3
    Pls let's discuss this a bit bc i've been crying all day ╥﹏╥

    Gab@urService July 1, 2025 10:54 am
    i sent you a message with the spoilers <3Pls let's discuss this a bit bc i've been crying all day ╥﹏╥ relena4

    Can u also give me the spoilers??? (=・ω・=)

    relena4 July 1, 2025 11:42 am
    Can u also give me the spoilers??? (=・ω・=) Gab@urService

    yeah, ofc!

    ten July 1, 2025 11:51 am
    i sent you a message with the spoilers <3Pls let's discuss this a bit bc i've been crying all day ╥﹏╥ relena4

    thank you sm <3 i feel very fulfilled now but yes ╥﹏╥ many many questions

    ummhai July 2, 2025 3:49 am
    yeah, ofc! relena4

    Oh god I feel like i might regret this too but could you also send me the spoilers?

    relena4 July 2, 2025 4:59 am
    Oh god I feel like i might regret this too but could you also send me the spoilers? ummhai

    yeah!

    HAN July 2, 2025 6:20 am
    yeah! relena4

    I binge read this in one night and omg is it okay if I ask you for spoilers too? I'M OBSESSEDDDD

    relena4 July 2, 2025 6:48 am
    I binge read this in one night and omg is it okay if I ask you for spoilers too? I'M OBSESSEDDDD HAN

    ofc!

    dokjoong July 2, 2025 9:18 am
    i sent you a message with the spoilers <3Pls let's discuss this a bit bc i've been crying all day ╥﹏╥ relena4

    can u send me the spoilers tooo pleaseee

    Matsusan July 2, 2025 5:50 pm

    Can you sendo me spoilers too please?

    papermom July 2, 2025 6:19 pm

    If you end up posting some more spoiler in public im totally ok with it..seems like more people are itching for more content haha

    relena4 July 2, 2025 7:36 pm
    Can you sendo me spoilers too please? Matsusan

    okay!

    relena4 July 2, 2025 7:39 pm
    If you end up posting some more spoiler in public im totally ok with it..seems like more people are itching for more content haha papermom

    i... dont want to ruin the experience of reading it, thats why i haven't posted spoilers in public. Im basically sending anyone who asks the same paragraph over and over, LOL. What do you think?

    papermom July 2, 2025 7:53 pm
    i... dont want to ruin the experience of reading it, thats why i haven't posted spoilers in public. Im basically sending anyone who asks the same paragraph over and over, LOL. What do you think? relena4

    Understandable and true but wow the effort

    relena4 July 2, 2025 8:05 pm
    Understandable and true but wow the effort papermom

    Okay! I dont mind doing it for a story I love <3

    Frenchfries July 2, 2025 8:07 pm

    Plz send me spoilers

    relena4 July 2, 2025 8:10 pm
    Plz send me spoilers Frenchfries

    Ok!

    BLues Clues July 3, 2025 12:17 am

    could you please send me the spoilers too?

    xingslut July 3, 2025 12:33 am

    Oooo can you send me the spoilers too pls? I'm dying to know what happens next!!

    relena4 July 3, 2025 8:23 am

    Everyone, maybe I got ahead of myself a bit, I'll stop giving spoilers until I manage to check that i was actually right about a certain scene!

    Sky July 3, 2025 9:07 pm
    i sent you a message with the spoilers <3Pls let's discuss this a bit bc i've been crying all day ╥﹏╥ relena4

    Hii, can you give me the spoilers please???

    psychemlioxs July 4, 2025 3:37 pm

    talk to me please ive been suffering this whole time reading the raws without no one to talk to.

    vol 5 is devastating but it gets better or at least it didn’t go from bad to worse hahaha

    Sulkiyu July 5, 2025 3:15 am
    Oh god I feel like i might regret this too but could you also send me the spoilers? ummhai

    Could I get spoilers too? I want to know what happened with the roommate and the ex. @ummhai

    Sulkiyu July 5, 2025 3:15 am
    okay! relena4

    Could I get spoilers too? I want to know what happened with the roommate and the ex.

    Rahi July 8, 2025 5:38 pm
    i... dont want to ruin the experience of reading it, thats why i haven't posted spoilers in public. Im basically sending anyone who asks the same paragraph over and over, LOL. What do you think? relena4

    Give me spoilers too

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