Loser's Favorite

I just took a minute to read the whole thing again, and I must say everything seems a lot more consistent than when I read it chapter per chapter. Bum just kept getting darker and Sangwoo is slowly getting more and more attached to Bum.

Bum seemed to have always been bullied for being skinny and shy, and after his parents deatg only happen to increase. After he started to live with his uncle he had to deal with the sexual/mental abuse and from his grandmother neglect. When the girl at school started to hang around him he thought he finally found someone who understood him, only to be turned down too. When he was drafted he was bullied by his fellow soldiers and sexually assaulted. When Sangwoo showed up and saved him from the soldiers Sangwoo become a savior. No one in his life stood by him for anything, so he found his safe spot. Sangwoo didn't look at him funny or pick on him, he became very attached. He only had one thing in his life that he was dedicated to and he put his all into it. Finding out that Sangwoo was a murderer broke his image of him for Bum. At first he was fighting with his past thoughts on Sangwoo and the current Sangwoo, love and fear. He was able to see sides of Sangwoo he never knew. Sides Bum knows that Sangwoo never showed anyone else (and lived to tell). Not only that but the things that Sangwoo did helped to build a stochomedindrom. The whole punishment + reward system. Even when he went out to the talent show thing no one listened to Bum they only look and ridiculed him. But I think the real change is the last chapters of season 2. When Bum meet the police officer I think he knew he was needed for one thing, testimony. The police man didn't really care for him, in his eyes, he wasn't a victim but evidence. When he was being interviewed he said "could you love me? Could you kiss me? Get angry on my behalf?" That was him realizing that no one could do any of those things him. He is to broken, ugly, and has too much baggage. The only one who could is someone even more broken and he should be lucky to have someone to think of him that way.

Sangwoo was abused by his father at a very eary age and his only life support was his mother. Sangwoo's mom was a dark haired, skinny, gloomy women and when she felt like her husband was getting angry would try anything to butter him up. It seems in this recent chapter that after years of abuse Sangwoo's mother became completely broken. She would used to stroke his hair and pay attention to him but know won't even acknowledge him. She was his only comfort he knew of and when it was gone he broke. He started to kill women because that was him getting his anger from his mother. A women betrayed him not his father. His father never showed him love but his mother did so it's a betrayal if she takes it away from him.I think his thought process is very similar to Bum's in that case, the whole "I was fine not knowing, but now that I do know why did you show me only to take it away?" He hates women thinking that they are all the same, but he loves his mom still. When he met Bum he saw his mom but not a woman. He saw Bum, at first, as a person who he can punish in his mom's place. Then he starts to imprint his fears of his mother on Bum. Bum is someone fragile, so unlike when dad did with his mom, he will treat him gently. Bum is someone skinny, so unlike what happened to his mom, Bum gets to eat with him. There are multiple sides that Sangwoo does with Bum. One where he uses Bum as a replacement mom. To keep a hostage and criminal relationship. Another to try to fix the wrongs that Sangwoo's father did to his mother and show that he is not his dad. He also has love for Bum (but since he is a psychopath it's weird for him and he shows it weird) but he has the fear that his relationship will end like his parents did. Him being abusive to the ones he cares for and making his loved one broken. It's kinda like if a boy would to have a dad that left them young, the boy may grow up scared that he would be the same way.


I'm in no way justifying what ETHIER of them did, both are killers and really don't deserve a happy ending. But you know it's a good story if you can feel for murderers and genuinely want them happy. I think the only happy, and justed, ending for them would be a double suicide.