I'm ngl. It seems like Esteban doesn't really love Llewyn, like in chapter 60 when they were hugging, Esteban looked like he pity him, and I don't recall Esteban ever saying he liked or loved Llewyn. How did Llewyn even start liking Esteban when all they've done is have sex?? Esteban has kinda been obsessive and manipulating him, but I guess he doesn't see that? It seems like Llewyn might be delulu..