For those who want to know what happend but wants to kno what happened on chapter 42 43 and 44
Spoilers below!
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Chapter 42 - bassically Shiwoo having sex with his 'ex' and having a flash back to his first time and being tramitized by it making him the way he is now we learn shiwoo's name is not Shiwoo Hyung but Shiwoo Lee then it goes back to Shiwoo and his ex and he thinks about Yujin before ha passes out.
Chapter 43- Shiwoo wakes up to Yujin calling him and is confused to why he is back home and assumes it's a dream realizing it wasn't only to have a massive headache/Migraine. Yujin asks him what is wrong annd shiwoo say that he has a headache while avoiding eye contact with Yujin. Yujin notices and asks did something happen when he left on his trip but Shiwoo just says nothing happend and Shiwoo gets ready for work. In the car and at work Shiwoo has a hard headache resulting in him lashing out at Yujin unknowingly when he tries to touch him. He apologizes to him and the room for causing a comotion and while avoiding Yujin's eyes stil making Yujin suspicious and guessing that somthing realy did happen. A co-worker comes up to Yujin and asks why is Shiwoo acting strange and yujin agrees that he is acting strange. The coworker mentions that Hyun(the ex) was most likely got fired by Shiwoo and the CEO and that no one was told what happened. And then the coworker wispers that shiwoo is pale so his old scars(aka hickeys) are easy to see and since Yujin is close to him to ask about it. Yujin drives a tired Shiwoo home looking utterly destroyed confirm in his head that something must have happened but still hive him the benifit of the doubt . Shiwoo gets home plops on the bed saying he is tired and blames Yujin for his headache. Yujin pulls shiwoo up saying that he will help him wash up and shiwoo tries to pull his hand back and says he's fine not wanting him to see the hickeys that he has but yujin insists saying he needs to get washed up and get some sleep or he'll get sick. And Shiwoo gets mad yells at him that he can take care of himself and Yujin says where all this anger is coming from and that he's never been like this before. Yujin calls him out sayying that he usually asks him to do it and if there is something shiwoo is hiding something from him. Shiwoo says nothing and aviods eye contact while yujin silently hopes that would say that he was wrong.
Chapter 44- Yujin asks if shiwoo is actually hiding something hoping he would say no but shiwoo only looks at him and says his name regretfully Yujin panics rips Shiwoo's shirt open and pulls down his pants scaring the shit out of shiwoo and confirming what he hoped wasn't true and throws an abundant amount of questions at shiwoo wanting to know who what when and where this happened. Shiwoo says that it is none of his business and to stop acting like his lover hurting Yujin deeply. Shiwoo sees Yujin's face and regrets it Yujin reacts saying that shiwoo is right that he crossed the line and that he see's that shiwoo see's him nothing more than a guy he wants to fuck when he feels like it and starts walking away and reaches out trying to apologize only to get slapped away by yujin saying not to touch him and leaves. Shiwoo regrets whta he said saying to himself that's not what he ment to say and runs after him only to stop by the elevator and says that it is for the best and that yujin deserves better then him and he appears to be crying. Then we go to a flashback of before he met Yujin again saying that he likes sex that he does it to forget about real world problems and then remembers during sex with a random dude that yujin confessed to him when he was younger and says to the guy what he wondered what he would think of him now and the guy said that yujin would despise him.
I can't even rn omg I'm crying so much the pain is too real