
That last chapter hes desperate to show him hes the only one that it meant nothing that everyone means nothing .yet doesnt know how to convey it ( hes so nee to all that) he is so use to depriving himself from feeling due and remorse now hes feeling all that and somehow trying not to loose himself. Yet u can tell he knows he fucked up and caused pain to him but still would do it if it means he wouldnt touch lin again

Is this the spin off of the mafia boss ( legit low key forgot if he was been a minute but the guy) that liked the pearl boy (the one that got close to his mom for him) Not gonna like he was a hottie and i really liked him was sad he fell in the water and want him to have his lwn story anyone know cus i wanna read

I really love this depth hes sense of feeling so agonized he even shows here like no re no real thought to the one that he’s currently with supposedly all you see is here as hell how we felt so isolated that he didn’t know why he got here and at the same time we all know alexi probably do it so he wouldn’t be targeted. He need to show that he didn’t care for Lushea and him being so young wouldn’t understand it we could see even as he was conflicted through many years. He still cares and wanted his Young to walk him the way he loved him or see him. I feel like there’s a lot going on and how love and hate her so close to each other, but they could be easily returned. I hope it will be clarity but at the same time I feel like our MC alpha is very close off because he’s always been the protector so he may not really tell him the truth why he do what he did.
seems he’s having an existential crisis—coming to terms with the realization that he matters too. He never allowed himself to feel this way before. Now, facing the idea that the Lord is willing to keep him,that he is meant to stay is frightening. It forces him to confront himself and his desires. Does he even want this? Is he ready to be happy? Can he accept that his existence is worthy of joy?i like this that it goes this deep wow never expected that it would knowledge his inner struggles too
My heart is hurting for him. He has never felt real joy in his life before and now that he can't die (his final goal for the longest time), he is helpless and lost.