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This site has become my online diary :)

Bored (i have a lot of unfinished schoolworks and i havent replied to my friends for years)

Gonna fucking kill myself

I love yaoi

Sometimes you crave say gex and thats okay. #BeWhoYouAre

I want to impregnate kim dokja so bad

Kim dokja oiled up and tied up underneath me need right now so bad chat it’s not funny anymore i need him

08/06/2024 - i just learned how to make a photo album in this site. i wish i learned it sooner, i would have had a whole album of just my beloved, kim dokja—but then again, i did read on the legal app webtoon so … anyway, i couldve had other albums of my favourite characters too TvT

08/12/2024 - start of first day of school. Im tired. I feel alienated. Ive been to new schools multiple times already, but i dint know why i feel especially hurt by being alienated this time. I used to be fine with it/ignore it, but now im trembling in fear. I miss my old friends

09/25/2024- i want to die. Can i please die in her embrace?

10/11/2024- i want to be alone. I want everyone to leave me alone

10/13/2024- I LOVEEEE SHIMAAAA AAAAAH, i love how soft spoken he is, his GOLDEN RETRIEVER VIBES !!!, his fluffy blonde hair, his smile—just everything! He’s so adorbs<3

10/27/2024- gonna be inactive for a while :p, switching to bl novels instead. Dunno when I’ll come back :3

11/07/2024- hyuna stronger than me cuz id put luka’s vocals into work and show the aliens a real SHOW
Dohyun claiming his uh hotdog is big and  id take that all in bro <33

Ppl be like: “how’s ur life?” Well i’m just depressed and HORNY

11/13/2024-i dont know where my life is heading. I am covered—filled and enveloped with fear. I’m scared of how other people perceives me too much. I hate it—I want to change. I don’t want to care. But no matter  how much i try not to care, the stomachache, the way my stomach is flipping upside down due to so much anxiety of how they see me does not lie. I can’t help it. Sometimes, I try to be the fictional characters i like. Those who doesn’t care about other peoples judging stares—but I always fail in the end. I’m so, so, so scared. And the worst part is i’m so aware of it, yet no matter how much i attempt to be okay—to be better, i go back to square 1. I can’t help it.

11/14/2023- I’m sorry for being irresponsible, for knowing that i am—yet not doing anything to change. For trying, yet always failing. I’m sorry for living this way

11/16/2024- guys help please god i cant move om from someone i talked with for a wholeass less than a month. I cant forget her. First wuh luh wuh go crazy fr. Omfg. Like. Damn.

11/17/2024- slowly accepting how things are. It is what it is—“if onlys” will only weigh you down.

11/19/2024- i’m really scared of becoming the same way as i was before. full of absences, a full on disappointment. it scares me so much that i cant breathe, my stomach hurts, my hands are trembling, and im short of breath.

11/19/2024- i don’t like being intertwined with others. the thought of romantic relationships—i don’t like it. i just realized today what fuels it, i do not like the idea of me being owned. i want everything to be mine originally. i want nothing but solitude. to be honest, i hated being alone when i was alone. i felt lonely—but now that i’m not alone, i want solitude. these days, whenever i experience solitude, i do not feel lonely; rather i feel enough. it’s due to the feeling that i hate the most—to please everyone. i am aware that i do not have the responsibility to please everyone, but because of my nature, i tend to do it. thus, i hate being around people. i cannot contain my nature. i agree on things i do not align with due to fear of an argument, hatred, and judgment. I long for the day that I can finally stand up for myself, and not please others. To be confident in my own skin.

11/19/2024- I love shu yamino so much hehe ! <3

11/26/2024- i cant do this anymore. I dont know what to do. How do i communicate about this? How can i solve this? But i know that im actually in the wrong. Im the problem. Its so hard i cant do this anymore. I want to kms.

12/20/2024- achilles mahal ko :(<3

Yoko na magbasa ng bl kung hindi katulad ni kagiura at Achilles yung male lead. Pota naman

Hindi. Ikamamatay ko pag ‘di ko nahawakan kamay mo.