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I love tragic romance genre the most. This is tragic beyond anything I've ever read before.
I felt so sickeningly mad at both of them at different points of the story, but though it IS the consequence of their own actions that digs them deeper into what happened,
I believe if only they didn't meet eachother and fell in love with different people who were more compatible with them, both of them could have had happy endings.
As attached as I grew to both the characters it slowly shows that they're not compatible, not only are their morals and goals and paths different, their love for eachother was so different, the last part is what I struggled with the most.
Because usually in the romance tragedy I've read, despite different goals and morals at times their love (as toxic as it gets) is 'compatible', the fact that for one to be happy the other would have to be miserable because that's just how incompatible their everything is drove me up a wall the entire time.
"If only"s are driving me nuts too. Even tho it's clear they are terrible for eachother in every way possible I tried to search for the silver lining till the very end, blaming the butterfly effect, what if 'XYZ' didn't happen and so he didn't massacre the entire village. Maybe they'd just live peacefully if side characters didn't fuck everything up-
What if this what if that. It's my favourite tragedy. Yet it's so tragic I don't like it.
In the end, it's the exact opposite of how I felt at the start, I when I thought the doctor meeting an injured man at that time were two pieces of the puzzle that perfectly fit eachother, in the long run, they never should have met. They were fire and gasoline.