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So like I don’t have many friends but like I have a friend who I was pretty good friends with in high school and now I try to keep up with him even though we go to different colleges but he seems like distant and uninterested to hang out at all when texting. I’m always the one who contacts him first to hang out or talk. He even ignores my messages when I just hit him up with “hey, I got a few hours, wanna play for a bit” he see it and then ignores it. (It is often left on delivered, not even read). Like I’d be fine if he said sorry busy or sorry super dead tired. And I’d be like ok cool. But nothing!? It ant even like I text him often. I have another friend who at least texts back when I ask a simple question and will leave me on read when the conversation ends. Like I wanna hang out and game when-ever we can since we literally never see each other anymore. Is this a one-sided friendship?
Yeah...unfortunately a lot of people drift apart when they no longer live near each other and it sounds like your friend is moving on. Dont take it to personal, shit happens and you will make new friends at your new college (congrats BTW, tho I will warn you this sucks).
If you want friends to game with there may be a gaming club at your school or you'll meet people just by going to class. That's how I meet my new gaming friends!
Im sorry you lost a friend, but think of it as moving on to bigger and better things!
Yes, with the signals he’s giving it’s clear he’s no longer interested esp with distance people naturally drift apart. It’s hard but I think it’s something you eventually come to terms with. You’ll meet new people along the way so I’d say don’t get too hung up on him and just move on, if he wants to, then in the future he’ll be the one to reach out. I feel like it’s never a good idea to force connection
Sadly, yes, but don’t beat yourself up about it. Especially leaving high school, everyone splits up and changes. I'm also someone who has a hard time making friends. I've been there where I faded from my friends' lives because they started to expand their own, and as someone who doesn't make friends easily, it's always harder on that side. Your friend probably doesn't even realize that you are having these emotions because he's building up the next chapter in his life and once important things are being clouded by new things coming up. Don't let yourself be down. You will find people who will be there for you as you will for them. And who knows? Maybe he will reminisce and make an effort to get that friendship back. I will pray for you.
(Warning, imma talk briefly about my childhood sad sessions)
So like as a kid there were times I would be very sad. To the point where I would create letters for each family member telling them how much I loved them and then apologizing for everything bad I might have done to them. I would hide it under my pillow and then I would cry myself to sleep imagining that I would do something very bad to myself. I would often think that everyone would be happier without me, and so I would quietly whisper to god “I’m sorry” multiple times until I fell asleep.”. This basically happening until the end of middle school are started at some point In elementary school. I know this because at some point I just became less talkative to people and was more afraid to interact with peers. I don’t remember why but I remember someone looked at me and asked “are you ok?” And I looked at him and said “yes” but the whole time I was saying no I’m my head many times. Although I never thought much about these times, I always wondered why I was so sad. Was it depression?
sending virtual hugs
do you feel happier now? cus I feel you man this just felt like a sneakpeek into my past i would hug u so bad rn no one should ever feel like that （/TДT)/
Thanks. Yeh, it’s wayyyy better now. It was a multitude of things but after awhile I stop feeling so depressed randomly. Honestly it still comes back once in a blue moon but it hurts way less and comes less frequently.TBH, I’ve never told anyone these things, tho I felt like I should tell anyone even some people online even if they don’t know me. So thank you
Thank you. Really, thank you.
So I just finished rereading this and I feel like uke and seme have always loved each other even before them realizing. I believe they both mainly interpreted their love as wanting to being with them always without truely understanding. It is briefly touch upon but seme said he fell in love when the new coach came but I believe it was more like a realization that he wanted uke all to himself. I also think, this is why, uke(whom also loved seme without realizing it) accepted seme love easily without much thought because in his mind, he believed that as long as he gets to be with seme then he is fine with it even if he never thought about it. Does this make sense? And I making sense? Pls share ur thoughts so I don’t feel like a madman going hysterical. (=・ω・=)