Nakiri

Is Haewon's poisonous body fluids thing a conscious decision? Her dad was saying, when she finished absorbing the 10,000 poison pill, that she'll have to be careful with her breath, tears, blood, and whatnot now. But like 20 chapters later, she's crying and smooching on gunwoo lol. So is it ki controlled or?

I stopped reading this because I wanted to wait for her dad's memories to come back and now it's completed??? I'm scared to read it (￣∇￣")