knowing this was originally meant to be bl kind of took away from it, to me. i mean, this was one of my favorite comics, still is, the ending had me crying fat tears. but to know it was initially supposed to be about sexy times between guys and stuff...idk. you've got thriller and you've got yaoi aka "no climax, no point, no meaning", and i feel like they're not in any way compatible. yaoi to me is just inherently unserious
this manga is so good!