I think this was the only way the older brother could have made peace with what happened. It's true he was violated and he knew it too, but he also sincerely(?) loves his younger brother...so I guess he didn't want to deny himself that. I think I get it, at the end of the day, his brother is someone he cares about, and perhaps he cares about him more than he hates what he did.
So much has already happened between them, none of it they can undo. There really is no going back unless he does something drastic like making himself and everyone around him believe that he's forgot about what happened. But in the end, they're still in some sort of play, and this time it was initiated by the older brother, [because now he knows that the younger bro won't hurt him like he used to (because of guilt)] and I think that's genius on the author's part.
It's been a long time since I put this on my want to read list, and I'm glad I read it all at once.
Truly one of the most romantic reads in a while, and they've never even voiced out their feelings for each other?? (except for the whisper)
Ml always asking for the mc's opinion every time was refreshing. He always(?) respected his wishes and made him feel seen and heard. And yet, their need for each other was never really verbalized. I fw with that. Just a mutual understanding that don't need words, a commitment to the other at the soul level. They're so...I want that for me.
Also! Isn't that the cutest baby you've ever seen in yaoi universe!
This is so tired. The premise of this story was actually so interesting. What did the author do to it sigh
I was just gonna ask for recs like this one!!! (Fuck sunset)
I was gonna say, the dream being a dream was the most upsetting thing to happen to the king, but then he did THAT and then I am reminded there is no redeeming him. But then again, I want him to coddle him. I want him to experience being loved by the teacher, but I also know that cannot happen without the teacher losing his wits. It's so conflicting.
Tmi but when I first started reading bl, I would stick to non-smutty ones bc smut made me uncomfortable (girlie was an undiscovered asexual) then I grew past that phase and now actively read smut (girlie is still asexual) but this and Rotten's smut makes me so uncomfortable it's bringing back memories of me avoiding smut I'm still reading tho
This artist is in my fandom. Their art is so pretty! The story was so cute
Hyungnim getting on top of Psycho King was so hot bye
The art is ugly I'm sorry
Edit: I read the last three chapters and just marked it as read
But Jin hallucinating Brandon when he was drugged out during sex with Matthew was so interesting to me, I 100% get Matthew for being jealous–
But I know Brandon is just one hell of a traumatic figure for Jin because he's the one who got him addicted to the drugs. Jin did mention that Brandon was like a father figure to him at one point. So I see it as an admiration, loyalty in the sense that he wanted to be praised by him, but then again also fear because he's associated him with the trauma of drugs and addiction. Brandon didn't know he had a good thing until he lost him, and it's so funny that exact same line was used about Jin losing Matthew.
I'm glad Brandon betrayed the organization and that Jin got to find out who he is, clocked him out for real because Brandon wanted someone he could trust, but he himself couldn't be trusted.
But yeah, it shocked me to find that they were in a sexual relationship. And I also kinda didn't like that he was referred to as Cheungwoo because of the associations with Brandon.
