Lectora's Things

Do you know what's scarier than open bullying? It's manipulative Bullying, where the victim doesn't know whether they are the laughing stock or not, the manipulative first makes you think they are your friend then slowly they make you a clown to everyone without your knowledge, from then on hell begins, so many confusions and guilty of thinking maybe, maybe your friend is the one at fault but then they gaslight you and make you miserable. They know what time would you be thinking of ending or moving to another friend group, at the right time they would stop it. They will talk normally to you, but the moment you are with another one they will start their conversation by making fun of you , no matter what you talk or say, everything will be made fun of , even if you don't talk at all, as your are the entertainment for them. There's no escape. You will only getting confused. But the thing is the victim can't really say much as the others only laugh at their joke made of you, when you really make a joke or say something against them, they all just start defending them or there be only silence. Is this not hell? Is that how friends are? I know she doesn't have a friend and she keeps telling me that's no one is there when I am gone, but she do not treat me like a actual friend, if she says no one talks with her when I am gone, then why she keeping calling others and go to others or when sitting with other , she makes fun of me. How can I get out of this. I try to be nice , they won't stop no matter what I do. Silent or not. They have to keep me like a clown and stupid. I hate it. She keeps me beside her so she can talk with others. I already knew the truth but still I want to have friends. especially they won't like it if you talk back, they will start making it like what you are saying is rude, make you a think your are a bitch. Others just love to defend them, even if I don't talk to them, when I talk back to her comments the other person beside her starts making fun of me. Like why? Because I am ugly , fat and a stupid navie who cant say anything right?

I want to discontinue from my engineering college and I am in my second year (4th sem), I have to get 'Tc' from the college, I am a CSE student and the degree has 4 years. Do I have to pay for 3rd and 4th year money to get the Tc or I can just pay my second year and get tc? (It's a private college).

so how can I completely delete the apps and search history ( including private tab)in chrome or google and also youtube complete without trace? And also how can I make sure it does not saved in my moblie sim card? No harm. I just don't want people to use my phone when I die. Just incase(๑•ㅂ•)و✧( I am not suicidel)

any free raw japanese manga websites that have Bl or pretty anything? I have been trying some raw manga websites but a lot of them don't got something I try to find. Please help me, thanks bros and gorls ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~

You know...I found a friend in my college(well the one I stick to most of the time, I spoke with everyone), all the students in my class have already friends because they either attended same school or hostel friends. I was trying to have a happy time in college, but it was the opposite. I am very overthinking whether my friend is dissing me on purpose or just joking. Well its my fault for not openly saying it wrong but what if they think I am just begin sensitive???. Like whenever she talks to someone and have nothing to say, she would make fun of how I speak, when I mispronounce something wrong or when someone call my name wrong she would hold it and keep poking the fun at me, and everyone would laugh just to get the conversation going for her??. But then today I pronounce a word right (Menu) but she thought I said that wrong... So she again with another who would also poke fun at me said I pronounced wrong, but the friend said I was right in very very low voice. Then it became silent. Like why not laugh now? Why not laught at her. It's okay when it's me?? But not you people? Like ok fine. I am fine with girls making fun of me since it always happens in my life. But then she makes fun of me to boys ? She laughs so loud I cannot say anything. Guys just so you know. I have bad experience with boys, so I never talked to boys in my age apart from my brother father and relatives. But I get scared when talking a stranger who's same age as me (males). I dont just get it. I want to have fun too but can we just not hurt others to have a moment? Why trying to be kind backfire? Like once they find out you are navie they target you. I am afraid to say anything because I don't wanna lose friends. But I don't want college to end like highschool with no good memories... I am a bitch because I think she being a bullying just because she makes fun of me or I am just stupid to not realise it at first? I dont even talk that much because they very well concentrate and waiting for me to say something wrong.. ruined my college life by myself. Atleast in my work-life I don't have to worry since it's just gonna be shitty right? Can I just accept the fact I cannot make friends no matter I try? I mean trying since middle school is sad. I just wanna have fun at college since home is a reminder of sadness. What would you guys do? Well I am gonna be honest I need advice from my Indian people. Thank for reading this . Have a good life. (Is there anything I need to win in social life apart from hurting others? I dont like it the feeling is bad).