Smolpotato

TOTALLY

Why tho?? (just genuinely curios) (〜￣△￣)〜

to clarify "uncomfy" isn't a bad thing! it means the author's pushing boundaries of what's acceptable or not and making readers consider things they never have

at least for me it's just less of a love story (because it isn't one, at all,) and more of manga with heavy complex themes like the feelings of depravity and defilement that can come with sexual behavior, and how no matter the length of a friendship two people might never quite reach the point of true connection and understanding. like it just feels pretty lonely :(

if you want me to really explain in depth it makes me really sad what Tamaki has gone through and what his childhood has taught him about intimacy. and to think of all the people out there in real life who might feel the same way about things as him, that they don't want to be like their parents and don't want to engage in 'immoral' behavior which honestly take root in fun (ie drinking) and simply cannot form good relationships with other people no matter how much they want to because they associate intimacy with something uneasy and disgusting.

and then of course there's the whole thing with Shunta's kind of insatiable lust for Tamaki who he honestly sees as more of a sex object than a person who has feelings and makes mistakes and has gone through unspeakable things as previously mentioned. and there's nothing too wrong with that since like he's just a teenage boy going through puberty but he just doesn't seem to care about their friendship beyond what Tamaki can do for him sexually. Really the saddest part was when he realized the whole time he was waiting for Tamaki to open up to him he never did the same. like their friendship is just stagnant

im dropping it now after reading chapter 11, yaoi authors need to be better than this.