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there's a bunch of question about gonghyun, though. idk if that's supposed to be kept as mysteries or something but why he courts cheongsun when they barely even know each other? why he tried so hard to get in the same level as cheongsun--like always go to the cafeteria to eat ramyun, when he doesn't even touch the food? why he asked cheongsun to meet him up for one month? just how his feelings grow, even if they meet regularly, there's no exact point that makes him would fall for cheongsun. or is it being described more in the webnovel so details like these don't really get a spotlight?

as for cheongsun, it's understandable because he liked gonghyun since begin with;;;;;

crap. the professor sounds really petty. what's his beef towards scholarship student that he has to be annoying like that just because one time absent?

i know this story is about gonghyun and cheongsun but it's still such a shame that cheongsun had to break up with hyunjin because of his insecurities. what saddens me more is he genuinely liked hyunjin but decided to run from the relationship because he thought he didn't deserve her. if i were hyunjin, i would be so heartbroken to hear my lover saying that thing to me. but that'd indeed difficult, cheongsun and hyunjin have different societal status. hyunjin might say she didn't ask for anything but cheongsun might get isolated later because they didn't grow up in the same environment--the wall is too high to climb off. oh ya, is that possible if hyunjin's fiancee has a relationship with gonghyun? they have the same family name so i think they might be brothers.....

WHY DO I FEEL THERES GONNA BE A TURNING TABLES SOON;;;;;;

now i get why the title be like that. 외사랑 ((oesarang)) doesn't mean exotic love. it's literally means outside love. maybe something like love that out of reach? kind of unrequited one, to be exact

all his life, jaehan always have it easy. he never put hardwork to get what he desired. he almost doesn't know how to have interpersonal connection with other people; most of his relationships only rotates around business and politic. that's why he couldn't understand the unfamiliar feeling, which is love. sex is not much than to satisfy carnal desire for him. maybe that's also why he couldn't get climax whenever he had sex with people but heegyeom

he didn't know that he interested to heegyeom as a person, thus he felt the uneasiness and tendency to crush him. this is the first time he wants something but can't grasp it, love was something strange for him. he didn't know how to love somebody, that's why jaehan showed his affection like how people care about belongings, more like an obsession

and because his pride always buried what he wanted to confess, he couldn't say sorry. and at this point it's considered late to make it up. heegyeom only knows that their relationship is hwadae and sponsor, that's why he's out of jaehan's reach right now

"daDDy HaS to MaKe LoTs oF mOnEy to BuY YoU LaMboRghiNi" YOON WOOYOUNG, YOU AND YOUR RICH ASS COMMENT DOESNT RELATE TO BROKE ME LOLOL

"cHa kYuNgJoO's JuNioR" which junior were you talking about hMMm;;;;;;;

anyway is there anyone who works with babies?? enlighten me bcs i'm curious, whenever i saw a baby swims with swimming buoy around their neck, doesn't it makes them hurt??? or maybe uncomfortable? won't their neck feel the pressure? just looking at it makes me feel uneasy tho;;;;;;

wonder what kind of skincare naoko been using that makes her skin back to become smooth and glowy like hers here lol. her arms and legs used to have so many stitches and mark from the amount of her self-harming tho

ITS REALLY FUNNY THAT EVEN THE ARTIST DESCRIBED JAEHAN AS TRASH LOLOLOL

also his zodiac is aquarius!! i had hunch when started reading that his zodiac is either that, or sagittarius ((due to his hot temper)). ofc i'm not seeing characters based on zodiac, but on the major generalization, jaehan's personality really fits with aquarius. he's distant, rebel, and has non-conformist attitude

AND HEEGYEOM IS A GEMINI<3 makes sense now why he really likes to lick jaehan's nipple and leave kisses on the neck LOLOL. sex with gemini is all about tongue and mouth. they're expert in french kiss, passionate about oral sex, and um.....rimming. LOLOLOL

yes it's cool from this chapter jaehan seemed trying to atone his sin. he also admits that he likes heegyeom, that's why he worked hard to started re-filming that. it impressed me that he's not just some wart who only know how to spend money partying and having drugs, but indeed competent in his work. as in first chapters initiated, he always succedeed when he invested to certain movies

but in the process he's still gonna pressure people and use his name to make his own way??? ik he couldn't lose any more time but look at how worried seyoung's expression when he mentioned about her sick partner. she knows this guy is a bad news. then what's the difference he makes? LOL

imagine if jaehan wasn't being too prideful and admitted that he liked heegyeom since he laid his eyes to the latter, there might be a possibility of them having normal lovey relationship rn. no longer drugs, no longer insomnia, he also didn't need to be lonely, divorced man he is

now, read the first word again lol

this is mad sick. i could feel hyejin's frustration as if it were mine. must be fucking depressing to know someone tossed you around when you're no longer useful for them. moreover that person used to be your husband. even if that was political marriage, you must be sick in the head to send your ex partner to mental hospital. i really want to despise jaehan, but his environment also part of the blame sooooo ya
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and for all history of me reading romance books, this is the first time i don't want the characters to end up together. this is really toxic. relationship that based of pride and manipulation wouldn't function bruh