So… with both statements being true doesn’t that mean he was there and when he got out he was no longer alive (if he wasn’t alive before that is). I feel like he would be able to dodge the knife and didn’t either for foreshadowing or just because he didn’t have to cuz it didn’t do any damage, he even pulled the knife out without breaking a sweat. It still might be that he just heals faster because he’s an esper and that he’s become null from pain.
To clear things a bit, here are my thoughts:
About the dungeon thing, I think he’s there as a civillian at first since they also said that no esper escaped alive but this could be a stretch but with this little information we have, I think this is the most probable. Second, the reason why he let himself get stabbed is because, if you read the chapters, they are the ones being hunted with a 10 billion won bounty on their heads. As you can see, the one who stabbed him is clearly one of the s class esper of their guild, ain’t no way we’re gonna introduce a twin or a doppelgänger now aren’t we? He let himself get stabbed to, not remove suspicion from them, but to have an alibi if ever the suspicion targeted towards their guild grows since who would have the nerve to contradict when what was witnessed since they would be like ‘hey I got stabbed by an s class esper, me who’s a c class, there’s no way we’re conspiring something together’.
Additionally, if you haven’t noticed it yet, the seme is so ‘meh’ since he’s a manipulative shit. Just like how he manipulated this ‘incident’, he also manipulated the uke to stay, or at least manipulated the situation involving guides so that no matter what happens, either is a win for him. The first possible outcome being the uke quits but hey at least he won’t be in danger since it’s apparent that the ml ‘kinda’ cares for him, Second is if he makes the poor uke jealous, he will stay so there we go the most compatible guide he ever met in his life right by his side just when he needed him the most, how convenient! .......
Black hair has been forceful from the start and shows no remorse for forcing himself on MC, it just feels like he is apologizing because he doesn’t want MC to avoid him. It’s giving ”I’ll show you what I’m capable of so you be greatfull I’m holding back” and now MC is letting it pass because he has a tragic backstory and he feels sorry for him. Blond hair has apologized and owned up to his actions but it feels like he acts/has acted out when black hair has done something bad to MC. Like he feels it unfair that black hair can take what he wants and therefore justifying doing something less but similar. White hair is not forceful, playing any mind games, or pushing his feeling onto MC without caring about MC’s feelings and response. Of course that doesn’t mean MC is obligated to choose him, but it’s definitely a better start than the others! I feel like MC is somewhat interested in black hair and his whole character/story, that he’s affected by blond hair’s clearly expressed romantic feelings. Although I am team white hair it has strayed to feel like MC is becoming more of the character in the otome game and less him, like he’s blushing at everything and catching romantic feelings way easier then at the beginning.
So… MC becomes physically ill because his body and mind hasn’t accepted ML and the only reason ML is holding back is because he wants to be able to use MC for as long as possible. He’s not doing it for MC ti be kind as he literally forced himself on him at the very start and shows no regrets as he keep enjoying their non consensual guiding. To me, this just feels like another example of normalized r*pe. The fact that this is a esper/guide verse is not strong enough to carry the lack of plot. Can’t believe the highly rating.
I wanna know if the MC ends up with the kind brother. I know there’s a chance he might be twisted too, but I honestly don’t like the relationship between the main(?) characters at all. I feel like every chapters just a dose of sexual violence that I’m skimming through because I’m a bit hooked on the plot and I’m hoping for a happy ending.
I don’t remember if this has a novel or if the untranslated version is futures ahead but does anyone know if it’s a good time to te-read this now? Or should I wait a few more chapters?
Okej, thank you. I just re-read it and although I’d forgotten why I didn’t let it go earlier, reading it again made me realize why. It add it clearer how the stories were as connected, even from the vey beginning. Also can’t believe Lorkan was even worse before then now. This manipulating nasty clown smh.
I was gonna drop this at ch. 27 when their guardian/child dynamic got to weird but I kept reading it because I hoped it would get better since it had 67 chapters and a 9.0 rating. Their relationship changed for the worse and was a never-ending cycle of the MC threatening to k himself and the ML feeling guilty. It ended with hMC stabbing ML because of a misunderstanding and the mystery/crime theme was honestly the only interesting thing going on. Now there’s a years long time skip and MC is holding him hostage and forcing himself on ML. The concept of ”it’s not r*pe if the other person gets aroused” is disgusting to me. There are plenty of good psychological mangas with ”mind-games” and arguable toxic relationships thats challenging the morally gray theme, this is just sexual violence and there’s no silver lining/deeper mening.
omg go read fucking 19 days then you snowflake
I was just thrown off by the high rating, if this is what resonates with you that’s good for you <3 if anyone wants to read something psychological that’s more than a time-skip with no character development and forced sexual violence I’d recommend:
Smells like green spirit
Murderer Llewellyn's enchanting dinner invitation
Shitto wa ai o Kumoraseru
Circle trap
Lifeless man
Cody obsession
Stigmata - Aikon
Trigger
The End of the World, With You
Moritat
The Way to Kill You
Boy to boy
Thank you so much! I wanted to read this because I thought it had such a cool horror concept but I don't like the turn this story is taking....
I'll try these recs out!!
you just included a whole list of things that includes sexual assault. bit of a hypocrite much